Soo.....
I dunno how to feel right now. It's a nice warm day, but I feel sad sad Why? Last night, around like 9 or 10 o'clock (I need to watch the time more) my grandma phoned to tell us that my grandpa had another stroke. Now, it's bad enough that his hearing, eyesight and ability to speak is going, but this is now his 5th major stroke, 7th minor and we're fearing a 4th heart-attack.
I've never had a really good thought on death... It always feels really selfish to think how you were going to miss someone, but in this case, I think he deserves to just get some rest, anyway possible. My uncle Richard is moving in with them, and so when he does die, my grandma will have him and Capone (her dog) to watch over her.
I think if he dies, my grandma is going to go insane. Let me explain: My aunt Suzie and her family moved down last December, claiming they were going to find a home after living with my grandparents. They left their old house to my cousin Melanie. They never did buy a new house, however, and my grandparents had to kick them out a few months ago.
Right about now, my grandma feels like a screw up. She's just like my mom, she refuses to let people see her cry. After my family made several attempts to comfort her, I went over to walk Capone and when I left, I put a note on the table listing every reason why she was doing things right. She phoned me about an hour later, and we talked and she cried at me. It was sweet.
But if my grandpa dies, she's going to be a wreck. I'm not the greatest at talking to her, but if he does go, I'll hafta try. She'll probably have someone else she'd rather talk to, and I'll let her do that, first. But I will also let her know that if she's willing to talk, so am I.
Wow.... Long post sweatdrop I suppose I'll stop writing now....
Sparkle Emo · Wed Mar 15, 2006 @ 03:10pm · 0 Comments |