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Hello Gaia journal. Did you miss me?

I'm surprised with all the time I'm not on her that you still are here for me. Or that I have a 7.6 post per day average... But the point is, thank you.

Its been over a year and, well, I am absolutely perplexed sometimes at life. The love of my life is more like a good friend now. We broke up for... Well, some type of reason. Nothing that makes sense to me. I hate unknowns. Well, I'm accepting it though, its funny that I couldn't even get mad as she suggested it. All I could think about was that if it'd make her happy, I'm all for it. Even if it makes me feel like s**t, or if being her friend ******** kills me.

But all this is reflection. Right now, I am good. We can be friends, maybe something more, but I am going to work on myself, and not deifying people whom I fall in love with. And I think I am making good progress. When I'm done with that, maybe I can see if she wants to try again.

Well, that's all of import. Or rather, all that's important to me. For now. My world views tend to change a lot, frankly I'm surprised she kept me these friggin obsessed for this long.