Things have been getting hard lately and I totally lost it the other day I haven't cut for three years, but there was just such a strong pull as I cried in the bathroom and my life fell apart...
It's like a ******** addiction like being a smoker who quit or a recovering alcoholic. It's there, I know it'll help, and because it's been so long, the high from it is just so much more than the last few times I had given in.
I hate that itchy healing state that the cuts get to in a few days. It reminds me constantly that they're there and why. and right now all I want to do is curl up in bed with a Neil Gaiman novel and wonder why I did it...
.pained.pleasure. · Sat Apr 01, 2006 @ 02:22am · 0 Comments |