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After the first time that i met him, i felt like i was dancing on a silouhette of blooming flowers. I have never felt so much better to talk about my life and my complications to him. Then after a few days of talking, he was dating a girl for 6 months, which broke my heart for what it felt like to be forever. I then realized that i was texting him 24/7 and i knew i was getting on his nerves. I was complaining to him all the time. now he doesnt want to be friends anymore, which tore my heart completely. I wrote him a letter last night to make it up for my annoyingness, but i became sick with abdomen pains, and then i realized my pain could be fatal if i have a disease that could kill me. I dont kow what else to do except keep my head held high and hope that someday he will see me as amazing smile girls, dont make the same mistake i did, pretty much you will be ignored by the one you love. I know how it feels to love someone, who loves someone else. believe me i felt it 19 times and counting. so if anyone wants to talk im here for them smile