messeage: Around, all around, the shadows gather.
My dread grows as the angry hand of Heaven falls against my eyes.
It smites me, and darkly my
essence drips
to the fallen despairing leaves.
In numbness I beg forgiveness
while the end of life laughs cruelly.
Now alone, my soul falls upon darkened eyes.
This is my Hell
When I Laugh – I Laugh The Loudest.
When I Smile – I Smile The Brightest
When I Speak – I Speak The Merriest
But In Reality – I Cry The Fastest.
My Smile Camouflages
My Tormented Soul
Which Is Torn Into Pieces,
Never Again To Be Whole
With My Smile
The Truth Never To Be Revealed
My Fear Of Allowing The World
The See The Me That Is Real
I Overcast My Fears
Of Not Being Accepted
Of Being Hated Or Scorned
And Of Being Rejected
A Painted Smile On My Face
This Is Just A Big Fat Lie
I Pretend That Everything Is Okay
When In Reality I Want T To Die
I Front And I Pretend
No One Knows This Smile Isn’t Real
I Live A Life Of Concealment
Hiding My Shattered Soul – Unable To Heal
I Put On A Show
So Well Rehearsed
Yet Every Single Day
I Think That I’m Cursed
I Paint On A Smile
To Make People Think I’m Okay
This Is Just For A While
Till I’m Dead And Gone Anyway
But When I’m Alone
Alone In My Room
The Smile Of Paint Is Removed
And I Face My Private Doom
Only The Walls Know
Only The Walls See
Only The Walls I Trust
They Will Never Betray Me
Cause They Know Who I Really Am
The Person I Will Always Be
The Person Beneath The Painted Smile
Never To Reveal My True Identity
The Mirror Also Knows
The Person Deep Inside
I Conceal Her From The World
But With The Mirror – I Cannot Hide
All Of My Depression
All Of My Confusion
Only, And Only The Mirror Alone
Has This Kind Of X-Ray Vision
It Sees Beyond The Surface
It Sees Deep Within My Eyes
Beyond All The Pretence
To Where The Pain And Sorrow Lie
But The Moment I Leave My Room
There Is This Painted Smile Of Lies
Never To Show That My Gloom
Even Though It Never Meets My Eyes
My Life Is A Masquerade
I Hide The Tears That I Cry
You Can't Imagine The Tears And Sorrow
Behind This Painted Smile.
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