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This section is a conversation with my, during this time, boyfriend.
Shadow the Wanderer: Sorry it took so long....
NinjaSoulThief: Why?
Shadow the Wanderer:...it's rather depressing what happened, but at the same time...
NinjaSoulThief: It's okay. What happened?
Shadow the Wanderer: It's Sam. Well, we haven't gotten mice for longer than usual. She is 'fine', but she looks bad.
NinjaSoulThief: Get some food
Shadow the Wanderer: Since none of the snakes have eaten in over a month and a half, they are all frail, but Sam, being wild (she has internal parasites, but it won't affect anyone else or other snakes) and having spinadifida (unaligned spine), not to mention her age, she is thin. Very thin.
NinjaSoulThief: Why hvnt u fed them?
Shadow the Wanderer: I WANTED TO! I cried.... she can't even strike a mouse properly. I had to assist the kill.
NinjaSoulThief: Okay. Im sorry.
Shadow the Wanderer:....It's mom not getting them. I told her to get it this past weekend, but she didn't. I am the only one who sees them now. She doesn't know how bad the snakes look. Sam is very malnutritioned. I can feel her ribs through her scales. It's sad. I tossed a mouse for Sam and Snowy, but then Jose [stepfather for those who do not know] wanted to take us out. I had to leave Sam to struggle the fight for herself. I come back and her body is still the same, which means Snowy took the mouse from her.
NinjaSoulThief:...damn
Shadow the Wanderer: I was crying so hard.*eyes watering again* I don't want to lose her. I made sure she ate one.
NinjaSoulThief: I know love
Shadow the Wanderer: Her body is strained so much. She can barely move now because of how much energy she used to fight two mice for about 10 minutes each, but she could only eat one. I killed a third mouse for her, but she was too weak to even open her mouth again.
NinjaSoulThief: when i come over tomorrow. can u show me?
Shadow the Wanderer: Why do you want to see her?
NinjaSoulThief: Nevermind. You don't have to show me if you dont want to.
Shadow the Wanderer: I will because you asked, but if you want to hold her, I won't let you. You'll have to feel her scales in the tank.
NinjaSoulThief: I wont hold her i know you dont want me to. You dont have to show me but it seems almost nobody else cares but you and i care.
Shadow the Wanderer: Snowy looks healthy enough, but she is captive bred, as well as Oreo, but Oreo is sheddish, so she won't be eating or moving (more comatose waiting to shed).
. . . . . I feel like my soul is being ripped apart again. Just like losing Myabi all over again.
NinjaSoulThief: You going to be okay?
Shadow the Wanderer:....I don't know. My mom asked if I was mad at her for waiting too long to buy mice, but I said know. You know I was.
NinjaSoulThief: i know. It is a hard thing to tell loved ones your mad at them. Try to cheer up, u know i love you very much and i know you care for, and love, your snakes very much.
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This section is a conversation with my 'self-appointed' brother (online, not blood or marriage)
Deshi_Venshin594: -pokes- hey ^_^
Shadow the Wanderer: Hi *wipes away tears* Sorry, kind of upset about things, but this doesn't involve my well being. It's someone else (not Matt).
Deshi_Venshin594: -hugs gently-
Shadow the Wanderer: I feel like I am losing a part of my soul all over again.
Deshi_Venshin594: Whats happening?
Shadow the Wanderer: I paste it. One minute.
(review of the entry above) Deshi_Venshin594: -hugs tightly- I am sorry...
Shadow the Wanderer: ...from now on, I want you to save an apology for a moment when it is needed, like if you did something wrong. What you are using it for is for sympathy. I know she will die. Her time is coming. I had hoped next year, but this year might be it for her.
Deshi_Venshin594: >.< I am not trying to pity you...uggh....and why doesn't anyone else give a damn?
Shadow the Wanderer: Jose doesn't care for animals and mom, well, is tight on money. I do not want to force her, but this needed to be forced.
Deshi_Venshin594: That isn't an excuse to let living creatures to starve to death! (not yelling at you)
Shadow the Wanderer: I know you aren't. Snowy can last two months. Oreo can last this amount of time, but since she is sheddish, she can last until she sheds. Sam use to be like Snowy, but her age is coming. I would approximate one month. We try to feed them that often.
Deshi_Venshin594: Only once a month?
Shadow the Wanderer: They are huge. The bigger they are, the less they feed, but the portions get bigger. Do not question a herpetologist in training.
Deshi_Venshin594: If they are older than three years old you should feed them like once every 14 days. So that is about twice a month.
Shadow the Wanderer: Like I said, it is about size. I am tempted to bring them downstairs. I want my mother to see the impact she is doing to them.
Deshi_Venshin594: You should!!!
Shadow the Wanderer: I wouldn't know where to put them.
Deshi_Venshin594: -sighs- I hate to see that...if you are going to have an animal...it is the entire households responsibility to ensure they are taken care of. Not just the person who loves them the most. especially when that person isn't in a financially stable precipice.
Shadow the Wanderer: My mom asked if I was mad at her for waiting too long to buy mice, but I said no....you know I was
Deshi_Venshin594: Why lie?
Shadow the Wanderer: Want me to cry more from stress upon stress? Then try to clean up enough to go to dinner? Yeah. Like I could do that.
Deshi_Venshin594: ...
Shadow the Wanderer: I could barely smile after this night. I am not smiling at all.
Deshi_Venshin594: Shadow, you care for those snakes right...
Shadow the Wanderer: ...did you really have to ask that?
Deshi_Venshin594: Then you shouldn't lie, sometimes for what you believe in you have to just take the punches. I'm not good at cheering people up, and I don't know how your family works either, but I do know that you love those snakes. I know you cherish them, so why don't you speak up about them?
 Lady Alantha · Wed Mar 07, 2012 @ 03:45am · 0 Comments |
