Recently I saw a man from mine and my mother's past, and it's brought back a few, rather unpleasant memories. Some of the music I have been listening to isn't really helping matters, either. One song in particular. "Never Again" by Nickleback. This song hits really close to home, and it puts...... images in my head.
I was talking to a close personal friend of mine over this, and he asked me what I would have done if I'd have gone through it all again. I told him I'd have picked up a gun, taken aim....and then...bang. I've had flashbacks and seen myself as a child, doing exactly that, right in the living room. It's highly unpleasant, and, although I hate admitting it, it actually makes me feel.......good. Imagining the look on that son of a b***h's face as I blasted a hole in his head.......seeing the red life pour out.....covering me...my hands slick with it.....tasting it in my mouth.....
I'm both happy and disgusted with myself at the same time.
Celaze · Sat Jun 17, 2006 @ 01:06pm · 0 Comments |