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In this Abyss. I feel so lost. I feel as if life itself Is just a cover up for the real truth. I'm so lost in my thoughts I seem to sink further and further into depression and rage. I feel so cold. I feel as if I don't care anymore. The true pain of life twisting it's jagged daggar into my spine And pulling out vertebrae peice by peice. Tearing me to shreds until I am no more. I feel so alone that instead of doing something I embrace the fact that it will stay the way it is. I don't take control of my life. I let time take the wheel as I drift into another nightmare. All I seem to do is to make other people happy. To where it made me happy to see a smile on someone else. But not now. There's something more. Something I'm missing out on. and I want to feel it. I want to embrace this emptiness inside of me and fill it. I feel as if I'm just an outer shell. And that I killed myself years back. Life's true beauties mean nothing anymore. I feel as if I'm walking around in a snowy abyss. With no one to talk to no one to touch hold feel accept share. Anything. I feel so god damn alone. but the reason for that is because I'm done with accepting people into my heart. Being backstabbed and torn apart by the one's you love. I'm getting to attatched to this reality, knowing that soon it will be gone for me. And no one will be able to touch my face. Hear my words feel my breath understand look me in the eye and tell me everything's going to be fine, and make me trust in the words.

Posted by: Abel VonRipper Fri Jul 07, 2006 @ 04:27am

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Commented on: Fri Jul 07, 2006 @ 04:33am

Commented on: Fri Jul 07, 2006 @ 04:42am


	Wow. Jon. You're an amazing writer. That's a way to get out how you feel. This.. This is art. You are such a good person Jon. I wish I could help. Please. Don't be sad anymore.. Don't think about these things. I love you. I don't know what would happen without you. This, was very touching. I'm sitting here right now. In TEARS. Jon, you impress me everyday. I don't even know what to say about this. "Torn Apart By The Ones You Love." Hate runs deep for what you've done to us, Left alone through suicide...

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Commented on: Sat Jul 08, 2006 @ 03:51am


	We feel alone.. but we mush understand that we are *not* alone. As long as we have each other we will never be alone.. This is our unity and it is what binds us. Together we can live through the dark times and we will come out on the other side and see life in another light. ~ Franz "Akira" Ledford

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