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I've been having these strange dreams lately...

No, it's not a Kingdom Hearts flashback, it's true.

Lately, I've been plagued by strange and even frightening images in my dreams... To the point where I have even become afraid of sleep out of fear of what I may see the next night...

The images themselves are not that frightening in a stand-alone setting, however, the fact that I can picture them coming true with ease is the part that frightens me.

I've got a can of Monster in me, and one in the fridge. That should hold me through tonight. Tomorrow I'll have some coffee, and go get some more Monster.

I feel as if I'm in a Nightmare on Elm Street movie, evading the death that certainly awaits me in my dreams by keeping myself awake. I wonder... If I fall asleep with a gun in my hand, can I simply kill the dreams?

Machiavelli once wrote that it is better to be feared than loved. Taking that into context, it seems that my dreams are trying to impose a sense of reality by frightening me into thinking they are real. Personally, I would rather love my dreams. It would take a lot of stress off of me.

My hands shake, my head swims, my vision blurs, my hearing dulls, but I am still awake. Still clutching to my last bit of sanity... How long it will last, however, I am uncertain of.

God help me, I don't ever want to sleep again.