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This is kind of hard to understand, seeing as I'm gay, so please bear with me. All of my life I have only ever really wanted one thing... to be a father. I almost was.... About a month ago, my soul mate ( a girl, a lesbian in fact... see... that's why it's confusing) Concieved my child. A short time after, she miscarried. but, her bodie didn't expell the hormones and everything at that time, so we went on for a month believeing that she was in fact pregnant... another incident happened that caused her to have to go to the hospital. that's where she got proof positive that she was pregnant, and that she had lost the baby... although she lost it earlier than we had thought she had. It's been hard for me, to know that my one dream was so close to coming true... and to know that, even after she had miscarried... we had thought she was still carrying. it's hard for me to type this even now and retain compsure, (which would be a good idea, seeing as I am in a public Library.) I know none of this really matters to or has any bearing on any of you, but I had to get it out... and that's what these journals are for, right? crying

Goodnight Sweet Prince(ss), May flights of Angels Wing Thee To Thy Rest...
Daddy Loves You.

~Phaete