well i know i havn't updated ina while. And i won't be posting the rest of Tenchi due to lack of comments. but i did write something in the last two nights where i couldn't sleep. it's more freestyle then poetry... kindda sounds like a rap but it's not intended to be one.
I try so hard each and everyday to leave what i cannot say behind in a dark place back to where no light can trace I write the pain down day after day but no one helps me out so my smile won't stay. I can't remember your eyes, your touch, your call I can't see past the fog that blinds us all. I've tried so hard not to think of you but it comes out all wrong and i dunno what to do. Turn on the lights, let me see where i am Make it through the night and past the condemned I tried too hard, maybe. To let it all go. But it all comes back and attaches to me So, i'm stuck in this crowded mind Not being able to find an excape from the people with all the same smiles This fantasy just goes on for miles and miles And it all comes down to this. The life in which i live, The fantasized world of imaginary happiness The once upon a time into which i give Please don't let me die i don't want any harm. I just wanna return safely into your arms I just want to go on living out there with perhapes a smile or even a care I'll just keep on walking and watching thier smiles twist Turning and duplicating untill there's something i miss The conversations we had the long nights on the phone, the busy signals and the dead dial tone I just want to tell you how much i care Maybe even find out how much you're there. Because this life of mine just seems so unfair as i walk around and see i'm getting no where. And i run so far, so far away who knows where i'll end up? Round and round we go, when will the world stop? See that's another thing, not knowing when we'll die. Walking down these halls and waving good bye I wonder if it's my last chance to have this last dance As we hide it all And begin to fall Trapped in a box, wrapped up for none to see Stuck somewhere with the forgotten nobodies. I tried so hard to get someone to ask 'How are you' or 'how have you been?' 'Have you slept latly?' 'Did you dream?' 'Have the nightmares gone?' 'Is the day still long' 'Are you still depressed?' 'Got something to confess?' But no i don't get that. I get 'You're so mean' when i'm joking around Or 'Go away" when i tried to stop thier frowns. When all i do is go out of my way for them Take time from my schedule to see them agian Forget my problems for a minute or two Just so i can come and see you? How come you never stop and take the time To think about this life of mine? Why don't you ever look into my eyes So you know how hard it is for me to be alive? I'm just so tired of trying like i do... Just to get put down by you.
NO. This poem was not for anyone and i wasn't thinking of anyone when i wrote it so don't get it in your head that it's about you or for you... who ever 'you' might be. well ii'm tired now... perhapes i'll find somewhere to sleep forever. Or atleast until dinner
KnivesTG · Fri Jan 28, 2005 @ 08:24pm · 1 Comments |