What is it with life and just as you think everything is going perfectly, it suddenly changes and something goes horribly wrong! Why!! Why! Just as life reaches a high, just as you have your perfect day, something just destroys you. Something, anything it doesnt matter what, it just does. It can even be that one person you care so much about that you'd do anything for. When that happens it hurts so much more, it pulls you even further down.
You begin to think, what if, what if they dont realise how much it hurts, how much pain they have caused you, what if they do it again, what if they dont care, what if you can't forgive them. Does that mean I'm selfish? Im controlling or something, clingy even. Does that make a bad person, why does everything I say make me feel worse when its some a little thing so insignificant. And yet I'm getting so worked up about it, and why, I dont even thing I know. There so much I want to say to him. But I dont know how. Even if I did would he understand, would I seem stupid for bringing it up, for writing this for bringingl my thoughts together for writing them down where he could see them. Does this make me selfish again? I dont even know if I want to post this but part of me says that I must, that I have to even if it is just for. But the another part of me is holding back, telling me not too, telling me to keep it in. But I cant I cant keep it in any longer no matter how hard I try. No matter how much I want to.
Then I think, does it even matter ? No matter what I do its bound to be the wrong decsion.
LadyPaigeTigeress Community Member 
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