When I was younger, the strangest thing would happen to me. I would just be standing in my room usually sitting there staring at the wall or it would be while I was washing my hands. Usually when I wasn't doing anything in particular.
I'd be zoned out then, bam, it would seem like I was standing next to myself arguing with me. I would look over and there I was. I would start talking in my head to myself. But when the other self spoke, I couldn't tell what it was going to say. Like it was a seperate person. It would be the most bizzrre thing. I would usually end up discussing philosophy with myself. Sometimes it would wind up being full blown arguments. It scared the ever-loving-crap out of me.
I remember one time, I was discussing 'What if there was nothing' and for a second it was like everything shut down and went black. Like there actually was nothing. But I then thought of the universe and everyting in it and how if there was nothing, there would be nothing no universe. Nothing at all. Usually after that, it would all come back and I'd go back to having my discussion.
Somthing like that happened often. It would usually go back to the nothing at all discussion. It happened enough so I could bring myself into this empty space without having a conversation.
It was the most bizarre thing ever.
Why am I writing this? Because it happened a couple of weeks ago (the standing next to myself and having a discussion) and I just remembered. I had forgotten it for the longest time.
Writing it down makes it seem odd. Like it was a dream or somthing. But it couldn't be. It happened at school.
I have never told anyone about this. I've always been afraid that it'd chase people off. Whatever. I don't care now. If I am nuts, then so be it. If this has happened to other people, I'd really like to know that I am not alone. Or if it is some sort of weird condition, I'd like to know as well. (Well, mabey not so much, ignorance is bliss, but yeah)
Much love to everyone,
Ramen.
 Kat Fink · Fri Feb 04, 2005 @ 05:34am · 1 Comments |
