as i walked across the platform to await the train, i stood there on the edge looking down others must have taught that i was going to fall in. i would have if it was going to rid me of my pain but it wont. it will only lead to my death and a one way ticket to hell and that wasnt my answer.i was memorize by the tracks, how it only ran one direction never looking back or stopping just going forward to reach it destintions. my eyes moving to the wall, wondering where was i going with all of this? where is my destinition? when was i going to stop was it when i reached death. why did i lead myself to ny? was it to reach another point another stop if only i could go home and not feel this mix feelings, i wish i knew. how i wish to be like the train hard as steel and only coming out with a stratch. feeling no pain or sorrow just going forward with out looking back. then again i wouldnt be human but another object with no emotions. never feeling pain, sorrow or even hate but neither joy, excitment. just looking forward and never feeling.
in this life if i fail and never reach my destiintion i will do it feeling all kinds of emotions even if its pain or sorrow those feelings will never last there is also happiness. it will only be a scratch, proof of my struggle and how i wanted to live on. i look to God for my destintion for he/she will guide me.
 Arashi_Sumeragi · Fri Dec 15, 2006 @ 07:55pm · 0 Comments |
