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I have been thinking a lot about it and i have sadly tried 3 times! I was looking around gaia today and i came across a interesting thread!~ "the Truth About Depression" was the name of the thread and was owned by isilkur and this thread really made me think! it contained somet hing very interesting in the first post! this was the first post!

"You've decided to do it. Life is impossible. Suicide is your way out.


Fine--but before you kill yourself, here are some things you should know. I am a psychiatric nurse, and I see the results of suicide--when it works and more often, when it doesn't. Consider, before you act, these facts:


Suicide is not usually successful.


You think you know a way to guarantee it?


Ask the 25-year-old who tried to electrocute himself. He lived. But both his arms are gone.


What about jumping?


Ask John. He used to be intelligent, with an engaging sense of humor. That was before he leapt from a building. Now, he's brain-damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog. but, worst of all, he KNOWS he used to be normal.


What about pills?


Ask the 12-year-old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to go.


What about a gun?


Ask the 24-year-old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his "foolproof" suicide.


You might too.


But...


What if you do succeed in committing suicide? Who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse that job--but SOMEONE has to do it. Who will have to cut you down from where you hung yourself or identify your boated body after you've drowned?


Your father?


Your mother?


Your wife?


Your son?


The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help. Those who loved you will NEVER completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain.


Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. Look closely at the 4 year old playing with his cars on the rug. Kill yourself tonight, and he may do it ten years from now.


You DO have other choices. There are people who can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call your minister or priest. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police.


They will tell you that there's hope. Maybe you'll find it in the mail tomorrow. Or in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away.


You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it?


Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later."


Thanks you this person who with the post alone sorta talked me out of it! If i tried and i was able to kill myself i would only hurt those that care about me and if i failed i would in a life of pain more then likely! Thank you person for hopfully a second chance.