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I havent slept in a while the pain of looseing my boyfreind i loved in march still hurts. Right now im sitting here crieing my eyes out and all i can here is his voice in my ear saying im here dont you cri ill make it all better... i cant stop i have been trying to but his memorie lingers in my mind... how can i truly move on? i cant move on its to hard. Some times i think hes next to me and at night when the lights are out i swear i can smell his colone. He loved axe and he loved to kiss me... god i miss his kiss... some times i dont know whats going on any more. well heres a poem i wrote to try maeking myself feel better.
Darkness is not as dark as it looks,
in darkness the light fondals what it took,
laughter, meomories, thoughts, and hopes,
pray to the land of ropes,
My freinds stand beside me here,
and alow me to let go of all my fear,
times in my eaching heart,
seem to be breaking and leaking with pain,
when in darkness their is light,
so i may from the night,
tears falling from my eyes the pain to deep inside,
sometimes i think sam had lied,
he promised me he would be mine forever,
but now it turns out that ment never.