Inspired by a comment my dear friend rainphoenix left in my profile, I decided to share a real tragic love (?) story with you all.
But first, for a more pleasant note, my friend Gina (the one I've been mentioning very often) told me that she is in love with me. Yeah, not that she loves me, all friend-like. She's in love with me! I wanna dance... SHe told me all that when I had invited her at home for a PJ party. I'm really happy about that (I've mentioned that I have a crush on her, right?), but I can't help but feel a bit worried. I'm that sort of person that doesn't want to get too close to anyone. I've been hurt by people many times in the past, so I'm just not up to it. And Gina's friendshipo, it almost has become an obsession to her side -she's jealous of every person I might talk with. And ok, she just wants us to be really good friends? But now that I know how she feels, while I really want to be with her, I'm scared she'll become too dependent on me. And I tend to hurt people more than they hurt me, you know. And next year I'm going to go back to my old school, and I don't want her to feel abandoned. I know that she will - she's doing her best to try to keep me in this school...
Uh, well, the pleasant note didn't end up to be so pleasant after all, huh? Now I'm getting depressed... It's the first day of school today as well. In 20 minutes I'll have to leave the house... And I feel sick.... Anxious... My heart is beating fast... Ok, ok, maybe it's not that bad. I'll just relax.
On next entry: The tragic love story I promised you (I don't have the amount of time needed to write it right now, I'm currently deciding on whether I should wear my contacts or not. I don't want to actually, not today... What if they start hurting me, like they did during the Geometry exam, and then I lose my focus and don't write anything during the Religious Ed. exam? Like I did with Geometry... Blast these contacts, I'm a good Geometry student! Lazy, but good!)
Uh, the end. "Finally," some of you must be saying. It's ok, I forgive you. Take your pills, because the next post is going to be a long one.
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