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A SAD LIFE

this past week, i haven't eaten. Its been weird. Everyone keeps getting sick. Stomach Flu sick. And all of the finals have been this week. So i just have been too nervous to eat. I wish i could have eaten. But there realy is nothing to eat, i guess. it's just me, alone in my home. My friends are the only family i can choose. So, ive been ignoring my parents for my sisters. Samantha (Sam), Chelsea (Jordan), Shannon and Bethany (Bethy). Theyre my best friends. Theyre the closest things to sisters i will ever feel. Ive gone to Sam's street twice this week, and I'm going to her house tomorrow. Her older brother is sort of cute, but he's a Scorpio- and im Aquarius. So, we could never have a relationship. Well... a meaningful one, at least. But, he hates me. I wish he didn't. I want to be friends with him... i really do! My feet are sooooo weird. My left foot looks like it's about to grow another toe!!! I just dont know what to do... it doesnt make any sense. My feelings are totally out of wack... im crazy... and i hate it. I, also, have the weirdest hair ever!!! Its, like, insane; almost as insane as myself. This week, Ive been obsessed with the songs Into The Ocean by Blue october and Alive With The Glory Of Love by Say Anything. Theyre the best songs ever. i love them so much. I realy shouldnt have eaten that pizza at jordan's house. She has a stalker, you know!! He keeeps leaving messages on her phone. Its really scary. If he tries anything, anything at all, ill kill him. No one- and i mean NO ONE, hurts my sisters!!! Thats how Bethy is, too. If anyone messes with her sisters, she beats them up! Like- this kid tried to stab me with a pair of scissors in Skills for Living class, and she slapped him! Right there, in front of EVERYONE!!! And, she hits HARD!!! She broke some guy's nose once, she hits so hard. She;s really sweet, though. Like, she would NEVER betray one of her friends, ever!!! I love her, so much! she IS my sister. I would never to daything to hurt her. Sam is really imprtant to. I love sam!!! She's my sister. She shares all the same interests as me, and she stands by me, even when the rest of the world turns on me. She always looks out for me, so i try to be there for her whenever possible! Shannon is my twin. I protect her. If you mess with Shannon (or any of my sister for that matter) I will personaly smite you! NO ONE HURTS SHANNON!!! Got that? NO ONE!!! It is 9:59 pm- it just turned 10:00- on Friday, December 15 in 2006. It is 10 days until Christmas, and my heart is so alive- for the firts time- it burns...