Today was the worst day of my life, it started off when I saw Savannah typing in her journal thing on gaia and I knew right away that Chad was going to break up with me. I hate this I wish I would of stepped up and gone up to him and say I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL LOVE YOU AND I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU, I THINK WE SHOULD WAIT AWHILE AND SEE HOW GOOD OR BAD IT GOES FOR AT LEAST A MONTH!! Thats what I wanted to say to him, but I'm so ******** stupid, I hate myself, I ruined his life and my own life, by not talking to him first before anyone else and not letting my feelings out to him, and now I feel so ******** stupid, maybe I should just die or something I don't know, but I really feel like s**t, I'm leaving early tomorrow, because I have to go to the doctors about my stupid heart. You know what I sort of wish now, is that I should have just died in my stupid car accident!! I got to go!! bye!! crying sad stressed and I don't blame Chad for anything and I don't hate him. I still love him, but thats not what he wants so yeah it's over!! crying
TWEEK_CHICK · Mon Feb 28, 2005 @ 01:47am · 1 Comments |