I looked for love, and have failed to catch it's eye. So why am i here if i can't be happy? Everyone sees my as a carefree person in teh threads. They see my and a strong individual who doesn't cry, never wavers, and who has a past that she won't talk about. I'm nothing anymore. I'm a no one with nowhere to go.
to someone whom i talked to a while ago (i don't care if this sounds corny) All this time you were pretending. so much for my happy ending. The more think about the times we had, the more think it's all my fault, then agian i'd never blame you anyway. You told me you loved me, but then you said that you never really did. I am i always supposed to hurt this much?
You know,(to who ever reads this) when i was younger i thought i had it all, I was one of the coolest people (so i was told) i had everyone as a friend, and everyone as an enemy. Not to long ago i turned to stone. I had no smiles, no happy conversations. I broke off from the world and i built a wall of lies and rock to protect everyone from me. My heart was incased in ice and i thought that was my ending. Eventually the wall wore down as i became better. I showed my face, and i even learned to love. Some didn't beleive it for the first time in a long time, i spoke the words i love you.. thier responce was "really?". Thing went forth and i found something amazing ( i wont get into that... it's not fair to have me talk about it when it hurts too much) but it left. just snuck behind my back while i wasn't there. (quite literally almost) So i'm back to this. Rebuilding that wall, and keeping my frozen parts cold. good day to you all may peace find you.
-Knives.
KnivesTG · Sat Mar 05, 2005 @ 03:54pm · 1 Comments |