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yeah. so i guess i'm back. the skeletons in my gaia closet have dissapeared for the moment, and, after changing my name and such, i am a bit happier. ^^. my avi as happy. of course, pathetic would be very happy if you donated to her. maybe she would draw you an awesome thing?? whoa.

s**t. yeah. 'cause that's what i'm in..see, i didn't do two labs in bio, vicious cycle ensues, now i'm a liar. well, that's not news, just the fact that the whole world knows everything is....oh god...of course the world dosen't know everything. just the labs. i don't even know whether i'll still be going to that school tomorrow, because my grades have been bad and everything...goddammit...my parents won't even talk to me.
i go to such a screwed up school.

i left in the middle of class. my teacher asked me if i wanted to leave, and i said yes. and i left. my god, what has gotten into me? soon i'm going to be a regular drug dealer!!! naaw.

you know what's weird? i don't cry when i'm hurt, i don't cry when anyone else gets hurt, i don't cry when something bad happens...i cry when i'm angry. and i hate it more than anything. damn emotions.

some people seem like they live on gaia. ah well. escapism's a part of life. but anyways. i opened up my art store. seems quite nice...

well. this title is veeery dirty. go read Beloved and then you'll understand it. yeah. that's an actual quote from somebody in my class. oh, here's another good quote, this time from my religion class. "every girl has their fantasies...every one of my barbies got raped by ken..." xd i find that funny. gotta love catholic schools. oh, and english class has been fun. Beloved's gotta be the dirtiest book i've ever read. and it dosen't help that i've got a teacher that points out every sexual allusion in the book..."what do you think the significance of cow ******** is?" -yeah. my teacher said that. gawd. what is school coming to these days?? xd

i'm in an unusually good mood for such a shitty day. ah well. yesterday was worse. but considering i only got about 3 hours of sleep, today's not going to be the most chipper day ever. but i get to go to san francisco with my best friend today! which will most definitely be fun.
why am i listening to 99 red balloons? why?

i procured my first quest on gaia. a complex shirt. and now i'm on to the big leagues. omg hat. or at least i'm trying...

life's just...so damn confusing. it's like i can't figure out who i am anymore. i feel like i have my own tyler durden, because i can't seem to rationalize myself with...myself, if that makes any sense. see, on one hand, i'm the catholic-schoolgirl, all a,hopeless romantic, perfect highschool girl. on the other hand, well, i'm the opposite. still a hopeless romantic though. i've fallen in love with two people in my life. that's probably why i'm so confused...i was bored in bio class today, so i started thinking of myself in terms of an enzyme. yes, an enzyme. see, the enzyme binds to the substrate usually. to create a product. but sometimes there's an inhibitor. in this case, a competitive inhibitor. one that binds to the enzyme at the location the substrate should bond to the enzyme, and prevents the substrate from bonding with the enzyme. in my case, my perfect schoolgirl self is the enzyme, my alter-ego self is the substrate (i'll call her kate i guess, she needs some name) and those two people that i can't get out of my head are the competitive inhibitor. but when i go to college, things might change. and i have a strange feeling that i'll be going by the name kate...