But the words now spill through my ashen lips
My heart is finally into pieces
Is this what you wanted, I ask myself.
To see me fall down onto my knees and cry like a baby
Do you enjoy seeing me serious and without a voice?
Do you love the fact I'm so obedient and never disobey?
I know you do....I see it in your eyes!
You love the fact you can make me say yes or no. How I move at your desire like a doll who keeps a complex face!
My anger is rising
Pumping through my veins
I've never spoken my thoughts, only written them onto a blank sheet of paper
But now I want to shout them at the top of my lungs!
I want you to devour by my hand and be gone with the wind for eternity
"I HATE YOU!" is what I holler in my head every moment I see you
This fury has claimed my soul and I'm not going to move a finger to prevent it
Because every tear that I shed you will feel, every cry for help you'll hear, and every word I tried to say...you will know what it is to have them drowned and silenced.
"I HATE YOU!!"
Yes I do. I hate you so much and to my disgrace you're always in my life
Our bloods are similar yet I see you as a stranger
The day you're gone and stop dictating my life will be when the sun rises and the storm will vanish
......I hate you
You crushed my innocence
....You think I'm stupid and that little girl you saw 10 years ago
Only in your head do you think you can repair time and that your damages will heal
How wrong you are.........you'll always be wrong though....always
I....hate.....you
