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You know what? ******** YOU!!!! I don't need your bullshit and your lies. You never loved me, you just wanted some p***y so you came to me to get it. You're nothing but a lowlife that preys on girl's vulnerablities. You never gave a ******** about anything but yourself and I feel sorry for any girl that tries to be with you cause you'll just end up doing the same thing to her. I hope you rot in hell. I can't believe I let you do that to me again and I can't believe that I actually trusted you to not hurt me again. So what, I did one small thing to hurt you but it's nothing compared to all the bullshit that you've put me through and all the blood, sweat and tears that I've given you. After all the times that I believed in you even after you've hurt me to the point where I can never go back to the way I was before. I hate you more than anything else in the world. I love you more than you can even imagine. I would do anything for you. I can't trust you to keep my love safe. You've struck me down so many times that I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to heal my wounds. I'll aways remember this and what you've done to and for me. Thanks to you I kmow now that people can't be trusted and that they never change. You'll aways be a monster and I'll always be a victim waiting for the monster to eat her alive. I thought that love was enough to make things work but it's not. Love will never be enough for you. You have to have their pain and suffering too. Well here, take mine. I'm giving it away for free too a good home. And if you still want more I'll be more than wiling to give you some of your own. I may love you for the rest of my life but that doesn't mean that I can't hurt you. And if I can't hurt you emotionally I'll just have to hurt you physically. Or you could just take my physical pain too. I won't tell you unless you ask why I have it but boy, does it involve you a lot. *sigh* Who the hell am I kidding? I want you back. I want your smile that you only give to me. I want that look in your eyes that you get when we're together. I want the way our bodies fit togehter perfectly when you hold me. I want you to protect me from harm and help me through the tough times. I want you to dry my tears with one hand and hurt whomever's causing them with the other. I want to be able to look at you and feel my heart pound in my chest from love and happiness again instead of fear and hurt. I don't understand why love isn't enough for you. What else do you want that I can give you? Was everything that you said to me just pretty lies? Or was it the truth but you got too scared to make it happen? I guess in the end to you you're pain will always be more important than you're love.

I'm sorry.