Grrr things aren't getting better, everything is only getting worse I wish it wasn't like this. Me and my father are fighting a whole lot more, School is only getting harder, and it feels like every one is against me. Whats going on now. Or what next? Nothing is getting better I wish for once things wouldn't be like this.. At least for a week or at least a day! Is that so hard to ask? Nothing is better everything is crap, and getting crappier, Can't things get better at least for a minute, or a second? Nothing seems to be good and everythings crap. I hope and wish things would get better, Everytime I do everything gets worse, then when I don't it gets alittle better then it gets crappy again, My father has made my life crap.Hes the main reason why everything is the shits, and why my life is crap. He wonders why I have a bad attitide alot of times, and I tell him is cause of him cause hes always at me and I'm never alone away from his crap. The only time I am is when I'm with a friend, or at school. But even then somtimes. Cause we'd be talking about some things, and then it'd just hit me or somthing.
School isn't getting any better its getting harder and it seems like ... ... .. .. .. ... ... ... ... ... ... ... Well.... theres no word for it. School is hell but thats not the word for what my school is. Myteachers give us so much work and want it done the next day. Like 5-6 sheets, and want it done the next day for class. And we get this in all classes!! So we get like 10-15 pageas every night. The teachers say we won't have work over the brake but what do we get? WORK!!!!! 17 Sheets of work!! scream Gahhh.. My school is a living hell.. First life, is hell now school!?!?1 isn't there anything in this world that isn't hell?
*sigh*
Other then that... I've writen a few more songs, though I don't know why right now. I seem to be getting no where. And no way to.. be able to say what I actully want every time I try to, it comes out diffrently then how I wanted to. At Right now I don't know why I'm even writing the songs.. I got no real reason to be writing them. Why am I writing them? Do I have any reason to be?
Whats the whole meaning of life? Whats the use of living if we all die in the end? Why do we live? What do we live for anyway? So we fill the spots of the world? Whats the actual meaning of even living if we all die anyway? We all die in the end..
 Sin of Sorrow · Fri Dec 23, 2005 @ 02:19am · 0 Comments |
