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Throughout the years, it's always been my mantra or principles (if you will) to always be the bigger person.. Or at least it's what I try to be. This is in no way of saying that I really am, because trust me, as flawed as I am, I always tend to be so low. Environment definitely has a lot to do with it and it has really been hard for me. I know I always mention about my current environment, how it affects me, my current mental state because of it and etc. But at this point I can't blame myself much (I'll talk about it more on another entry). One thing is for sure: Being the "bigger person" will eventually drain you. Like, so much, It will literally eat you alive. I have the highest respect to people who can consistently be the bigger person because that is such a hard thing to do. In my case, I (sometimes) tend to level people, I guess it's not entirely a bad thing, but I feel REALLY guilty afterwards. This is also not to say that 'leveling' with people or going even lower is 'entirely' bad, I know it depends on the situation and all other factors. I just wish this time I won't be able to be bothered by other people so that I won't "have" to be the "bigger person" anymore. It's tiring and at this point, I'm tired.