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I live a life that is nothing but a lie
the people around me that seem to care
the family that say they love me
to do your best and being there for others is a lond-sided coin
no one really cares nore even says thanks
to work hard and harder just to get aboused and used
to work yourself t yoru breacking point and furthere
its easily seen but no one care for you
to hurt ones you wouldnt hurt but push them back
trying to provent what you dont wanting to do, but doing it by pushing them away
life is not worth the pain it brings to others
life aint worth the heartach
but whom in life dose life please
not the one that is working hard
not the child that is getting raped
not the teen that just gave birth
not to the widow that is left by herself
life is ended quikly
some lives in sooner then others
by there own hands or by some miss forchan that life brought to them

One day everyone and everything around you is bright and shinny
The next minuet everything turns black and dies
The one you love leaves you shoving your heart that they gave you down your thought drenched in acid
You close friends die or leave without saying good bye
Life is something that wants you too dies
Death is something that wants too be know fully
Death is ruling over your heart
Death is ruling over you mind
Death is something that wants you but stops just when you get close
No one wants you for nothing but a tool
People only want you to be used and abused
That is what is going on know and what has always happen

A friend that you can trust,
Someone to open your heart too
A good friend that would always be there
Someone that will help you out of trobble
To bust you out of jail and not rat on you
A true friend that when your lost that will find you
For someone that i can turn to is my brother
Though he may not really be my real brother
But none the lest they are my brothers
And i would do anything for them and they would for me
So too all my brothers thank you and i love you all
heart heart heart heart heart heart

Chronos Malada HaDes, Phonzy, Crucifer Cain Althaeda, Dark Fairy King, Drakuu, Syft, Cao Sandine, Darklink, Hells Bells

Happiness is sometimes the hardest to find
but with close friends and people that you care for
happiness is just around the courner
love is one thing that can to some forevere
but to me there is only one thing that last forever
that is the happiness with others
haveing friends and only making more is better then nothing
i love my fiends and the happiness we chare
that is why my foundest memberys are of whith my friends
and my friends are the ones i love
thank you everyone

Life is ful of wonderfull things
Dreams that no one wants to get read of
But the world is not all sunshine and dassies
There are somethings that hount people
There are dreams that never go away
For these dreams thes hountings bring suffering
Suffering to then one that had them....
They can be of someone that they loved
It could be something that they saw
But what is it that these people can do with them
One of those people is me.....I see the ones that I loved
And I see the ones that I care for
But they are to far for me to reach
They dont see me they dont remember me
To them I am none exsistant......
I am no one in this world
Am I to die in a dark cave in the woods were no one can find me
If that is to be me then I take it with no regrats
I take it with open arms
In a world of love and happyness
There is not need for someone that could ronen it all
To destoy eveyones happy dreams with there nagative memeries
To die now will make the would happier for the ones I love
Then let me die now

to wish to be died is what most wish
but most wish more than others
some people even actully try
for me i know im a mastercist
i try manytimes i wish it often
but for most reasions it just dosnt work
to walk down the street and purpily get killed
no i dont do it that way.....
for me i try to get killed by acadent
if i were to be killed life would be good
of the fact that my life has ended
so that i could live the way i like
so if anyone that reads this
do me a favior and kill me

live is what some think last for ever
but does it really
etuneity is on thing
etuneity is sufferage
etunal pain
that is what i think it is one thing
noting that else
only leading to death
death is were it all ends
death is were it will also begin

A day ser for others to exsperace their love
A day to exsperacethat they like someone else
But is this day really of any importans
Why should anyone celaberay this day
Why should most of the people suffer
Suffer while others apout them are so happy
Why should one person stand alone in the darkness
While theirs are seen standing in the light
At this time i feel more down then someone can feel
I feel sad and alone as all life is sucked away
To crawl in a hole and excape reality
To do so will bring me out of this time
The time of love, of sharing, of the pain that is this day
To end what will never be and never will
But not to end it now at this time
This time will burn into my heart
To harden my heart to the pain
To dry out my emotions
To live the rest of my life this way
This way of life is how I'm coursed

Left in a world of darkness
Setting by yourself in a would unknown
Woundering, looking around if light will show
Hard to see what is infront of you
Sounds are herd from everywere
Sounds of clinging
Sounds of clashing
Sounds that mack your heart race
Sitting in the darkness by yourself
Scard that there will be no light
Scard that there will not be a new day