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Report | 01/10/2010 9:35 pm

Destiny2135

You have no clue how bad I wish I was back there right now.
If I could I would be there, I kept asking him at the bus station
to just ask me to stay... and I would have. But you guys were right
I had to come back to get things settled. I just wish that this s**t
was not happening. I am terrified of what could happen if I can't
get my kidney taken care of. I thought my back was the only thing
was was wrong but I feel like I am falling apart without you two.

I also have to figure out if I can get all this stuff transferred to a dr in
idaho so that I have the option to get my new kidney transfer done there
and I need to find a way to get my medical insurance coverage for over there.
I don't want You and justin to watch me die cause i dont have insurance over
there.

I been working my a** off on everything. I don't want to be here all alone.

Report | 01/10/2010 7:32 pm

Destiny2135

I have to see the Dr on thursday about getting on the waiting list for the
transplant. I am doing all that I can.

You know ... before I went to Idaho I was having a horrible time
sleeping... Now? I look back at the way i was sleeping before I went over there
and I wish I was getting atleast that much. I can't be on the computer much because
I burst into tears, I can't pay any bills because I am always here with the nurse at the house.
I miss work, I miss friends, and I miss being home with you guys laughing and being
retarded.

Right about now, a bowl sounds perfect.

But you know I don't do that, I did a couple times but you know it's not me.

Now, I never celebrate holidays but... I have made a new years resolution, and that is to
some how get stronger. The only thing I can think about anymore is
my fear of dying. I don't want to die... I know I been saying this alot but
I don't think I have ever been this scared in my entire life.

Report | 01/10/2010 6:00 pm

Destiny2135

I got your things back in the mail,
I will send them out sometime next week.
trust me this is not easy on me.
I went to the dr's on friday and i got
alot of blood results back and my urinalysis
results too. The doctor had me fill out proper paper work for
a living will. Such as whether they should put me on life support
dialasys, stuff like that. They also want to put
me on the list for a new kidney. They found out that the reason
I was having those stomach problems
was because my kidneys are damaged. I was given a precription for it.
but i will not be able to get that till my mother or some one sends me the money for that.

I would have told you sooner, but i only just found all this s**t out on friday.
All the dr said to me was. "You either take care of your diabetes, or it
takes care of you." I don't want to die... I don't want this to kill me. I am so ******** scared.
It's like I am falling apart over here.

Report | 01/09/2010 9:46 am

Destiny2135

I am going crazy with all this being careful crap.
They have me in a wheel chair until my check up
in a week, then if I am making enough progress according
to them, I am aloud to start doing a little more.
When I was told that I was like WTF!? Thank God my insurance
covers all this and the at home nurse too. The nurse is nice I like her.
She talks to me now and then, but I miss curling up on the couch
watching movies or chillen with you and I miss goofing around
being retarded with Justin.

Report | 01/08/2010 9:56 pm

Destiny2135

I am sorry I have not been online.
Computer hates me and my back hurts so bad.
I just wanted to say I love and miss you guys so much
and wish I was there. I hate this feeling of being
completely alone.

Report | 01/07/2010 2:40 pm

Destiny2135

I am doing alright
just sore as hell and tired all the time.
Glad you are getting used to the site.
Your avi looks good.
I miss and love you guys too!!!
XOXOXOXO

Report | 01/07/2010 3:46 am

Destiny2135

well i would tell ya but it looks like u found em lol

Report | 01/06/2010 9:35 am

Destiny2135

Just wanted to say good morning to you both.
Keep warm and I love you.

Report | 01/05/2010 3:38 pm

Destiny2135

Good, I am glad he is home and alright.
I am going to get to sleep soon though, I am
pretty tired, and sore. Many hugs and kisses to you
and Justin.

I love you both

Report | 01/05/2010 2:59 pm

Destiny2135

Ok I look forward to hearing whats going on.
Hopefully everything it alright.

Report | 01/05/2010 12:17 pm

Destiny2135

I will get through the PT
I hope he makes it home alright.
How did he get down there? I am guessing
a friend took him.

Either you or him, I want one of u to
let me know what happened when u know

Report | 01/05/2010 11:58 am

Destiny2135

I am sure that I will be fine once I am all healed up.
I never done physical therapy before, but I
guess its manditory.

Report | 01/05/2010 11:33 am

Destiny2135

Thank you for your prayers.
I am online on and off... I am not feeling
too well right now. But I thought I would let you
know I am home.

Report | 01/03/2010 4:01 pm

Destiny2135

Chea! I know. But I try not be on the computer too much. I have
so much to do.

But beings how they are turning me into bitcheroni tomorrow
I will be laid up in bed for a little bit.

Then I have physical therapy. Which is going to suck a**.

Report | 01/03/2010 3:34 pm

Destiny2135

eek, well hmm... Once I get that link for ya I will send it to you in a message so you can save it and not lose it.
instead of keeping it on your profile.

Report | 01/03/2010 3:18 pm

Destiny2135

Yeah it takes some getting used to on here.
If you want I can fetch a forum thread for gaia
users that are older like 20years old and up.

It will take some time for me to fish it out but i
do believe i still have the link.

Report | 01/03/2010 3:01 pm

Destiny2135

Of course I will!
LOL I am one of the oldest accounts on here. lol
If I cant help you with this I bet i know ppl who can.

Report | 01/03/2010 2:39 pm

Destiny2135

I know.

I am trying.

Report | 01/03/2010 2:31 pm

Destiny2135

Awe, its not just about that.
I been afraid of loving some one the way I love him and
then getting hurt again. But I know that he loves me
and I do trust you. Just sometimes my fears get to me.

He is everything to me and I never ever want anything to
change that.

He's the best thing to happen to me, and I wish he knew how
wonderful he really is.

Report | 01/03/2010 1:32 pm

Destiny2135

I miss him too.
You have no idea.
I shouldn't have come back here...

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