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Posted: Tue Jun 12, 2007 8:37 am

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Okay so like an hour ago I nearly drowned ;-; My cousins were over ( beacuse its really hot out ) to go swimming in our pool and they were using this like, blue plastic boat thing. Its one of those where you can actually sit in it and paddle..fairly large.So anyways, everyone went inside and the boat was sinking towards the bottom of the pool so I thought I'd go get it but somehow after dragging it into the shallow end I got stuck under it D: And because it was the shallow end I was like pressed to the bottom of the pool and couldn't lift it up beacuse it was SO HEAVY because of all the weight from the water on top of it. It was soo scary, because I can only hold my breath for like 30 seconds >.> and then I swallowed some water, but I found a really small crack and was able to get my hand through. It was just that I panicked for like 25 of those seconds xd and I was running out of breath..
No one was outside either =/ Oh well. I should stop being so dramatic xP It was just scary, thats all.
It was really weird too, because I'm a really good swimmer. I've took lessons since I was practically six years old, was on the swim team.. swam lakes and stuff. Maybe it wasn't such a swimming thing but I guess strength and how long I can hold my breath >.<

A little shaken up, but I'm okay. <3 *whew*

I dyed my hair blueish with Kool- aid but it won't come out! D: It better be out by the wedding >.> or they'll all think I'm nuts.
A little sleep deprived, but for some reason I just can't sleep D> I'm like a little kid waking up at 6:30 oppose to sleeping till like.. noon. Like I used to.. I guess a lot has just been on my mind x3can't think of anything to buy my friend for her birthday.. I'm always bad with this type of stuff. Shopping for people who are nothing like me, in turn making me clueless to what they would like...
=big sigh= That's it for now. Toodles. heart

Posted: Wed Jun 13, 2007 9:16 am

:O! Man that drowning thing sucks! I've had a near drowning experience as the kid and it really messed me up in some ways when it comes to open waters. I would kinda freak out playing mario 64 when I'd do any of the water levels cause I think it synced back to the memory of almost drowning. Also the ocean kinda scares me. but I love to swim! Be more careful it would be a shame to lose you. but it's really nice to see that you're always doing something and have something to write about.

lol@koolaid.

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Posted: Wed Jun 13, 2007 10:01 am

BWAHAHA!
KOOL-AID GURL.

And yes, drowning sucks, but you did not die, so it is good that you did not die!
But I find it funny you got stuck under it.. SHORTY. ;3

Also.. Water is very heavy. It really takes a lot of strength to lift a shallow end of water.. So you'd probably drown even if you were 175 pounds of muscle. But who knows?
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STOP THINKING JUST DO IT. pirate -Sarcasm-

YOU'LL KNOW, most of the time it's pretty obvious or you can just ask them. TAKE CARE CLEAR. ^_^

Posted: Wed Jun 13, 2007 10:33 am

=D Hey thanks you guys, for the concern and stuff. =P Yeah, water can be scary sometimes, but I dont want to let it keep me from swimming, because I love it. THOUGH the ocean does scare me sometimes too! D:! I bet the only reason I got stuck though was beacuse I'm short. sad but whatever.

So today.. I am happy.. tired... but happy. I totally kicked @$$ my first day of summer gym >D But in the morning I came tumbling down the stairs and EVERYONE had left. I must have screamed their names about 15 times and checked the garage like twice. =.= If you are tardy to gym then its like being absent. If you are absent, you get no credit. It sucks.

I was there at 7:30 which is when we started. We had to jog two miles in the beginning, ( un timed ) but I think I did really well. Afterwards I had to run a timed mile and I got 7: 20 which isn't too shabby. I run a lot, so this part of gym was pretty easy. ^_^ Plus I got to run a long with some nice people who were my pace, Molly, Shelby and Eric ^.^ Yay for making friends! xD

Then we had to do ultimate frisbee and these guys were totally dominating the game D< Which made me rather mad but I didn't do anything about it.. just played a long D:

But when it got to softball I got really pissed. These same guys thought that they pretty much owned the game and everyone else sucks. >.< So when it was my turn to bat, they actually called everyone to MOVE IN which really pissed me off.

Pissed off Clear = Clear's ultimate motivation.

I totally hit a homerun biggrin And ran all the bases~ just. like. that. ^o^ and then i did it again. xd

Same kinda happened with volleyball, I scored tons of points just from serving which was rather fun. And then we had to do more running biggrin which was great, I'm really getting in to shape which I like a lot. 3nodding

Oh yeah.. I won 3 games of B.S. ;D

Good day so far, usually I'd still be sleeping at 11 ( xd ) but I like getting up early and being active. I guess that's what I'll be doing for the next 3 weeks.. D:

Though usually I do solo sports.. team sports are actually rather fun.

Hopefully there's more swimming next time.. It was like 98 degress out! Torture!

I'm going to chill for the afternoon though, I'm pretty tired considering I went to bed at like 2am. xp I couldnt put down my book until I finished it.

Considering going swimming, even after yesterday. =/ I'll just stay away from boats XD Gonna go out for icecream too <3

Majority of the Kool aid is out *Thank God* *that's something I'm never going to do again!* I found a really cute dress for the wedding reception too!!!! It's short and red biggrin And I found the PERFECT earrings. ;D
Found my friends present too, went shopping yesterday. Yay for cards and fluffy pens! 4laugh

Lawls I guess that's it. I absolutely love this journal Idea btw! xD I thought I wasn't going to write much but I find myself always journaling whenever I log on gaia. whee I use it more than my other one too! :O

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Posted: Wed Jun 13, 2007 1:56 pm

R.I.P. HOUDINI.

Houdini was my hamster, about an hour ago I went upstairs to the hobby room to put some goodies in his food bowl, went to pick him up and found him dead.

Why are all my pets dying? Especially the ones I've had the longest.

Houdini was 5 years old. I remember the day when I bought him. I picked him up and he bit me. Automatically I said he was the one I wanted. Just like that. ^.^ God, I loved that hamster. He didn't love me though. D: That's how he got his name, " Houdini" He would always try to escape. Idk why. He had like hamster paradise handed to him. He had one of those tube things coming out of his cage too.. the ones they can climb? Well one day he chewed a hole through the plastic and escaped. I found him crawled up in a ball on my bed. He had pooped. stare
Anyways.. after that I took the connector down so that he couldnt clim up to where the hole was anymore. He then decided to stand on his food dish and water bottle to get up there.. so I moved those. Then one day I found him *GONE* He had pushed his chew stick underneath his running wheel so that it wouldn't move.. and then climbed up and escaped.

Wow. I really miss this little guy. D> I just buried him.. crying
Man. This sucks. This totally put a damper on my day, saying the least.

I'm gonna go clean his cage in a little while, after I'm done mourning him.

Love your pets! You'll never know how much you love them until they aren't there any more. D: Well. Maybe you do. But that's not the point. Go show them some love! D>

Posted: Wed Jun 13, 2007 7:38 pm

*overheats* gah! so much to do. T^T

I fell asleep wrong.. now my chest hurts near my heart crying a lot actually.
Word to the wise: dont fall asleep on your stomach!

Watched some movies, cried a little. Started on my summer reading for school.. o:
Still have to pack for Illinois. Going somewhere nearby Chicago for my cousin's wedding..leaving friday morning. >=l haven't seen the whole family in years. Its gonna be cool. ^-^ Hopefully..
Some guy just asked me out O_o;; I had to say no though because I dont really know him all that well, I feel bad. sad
Just found out about all this crap I wish I didn't know about.. *sigh* I feel so controlled. Not by myself.. I hate it. scream

Mood: Confused, Hurt, Sad, trying too hard to stay busy
Song: Life for Rent..

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Posted: Wed Jun 13, 2007 8:14 pm

oh gees I missed a lot in two days. first off, I';m sorry that Houdini died. I had a hamster before soon and he didn't like me much either but it's never fun losing them.Try washing your hair with dish soap to get the kool-aid out. I'm glad you didn't drown either. Here is a nerd filled fact for you. The pressure of 10feet of water is the same as the whole atmosphere on you. So like you have twice the weight of the whole atmosphere on you when you only go down 10ft. Don't feel bad for saying no. Better then saying yes out of pity.Isn't it fun to show guys up in sports. I was like a soccer champion when I was little but in school when we played kick ball all the boys would yell to move it and I would kick it way the heck out there. It was great. It sounds like you are getting a lot of exercise. It makes me feel like more of a lazy a**.I like typing in the colors.I sleep on my stomach all the time. Its how I sleep the best. I get a back ache if I sleep on my back or side.

Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2007 10:50 am

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oh gees I missed a lot in two days. first off, I';m sorry that Houdini died. I had a hamster before soon and he didn't like me much either but it's never fun losing them.Try washing your hair with dish soap to get the kool-aid out. I'm glad you didn't drown either. Here is a nerd filled fact for you. The pressure of 10feet of water is the same as the whole atmosphere on you. So like you have twice the weight of the whole atmosphere on you when you only go down 10ft. Don't feel bad for saying no. Better then saying yes out of pity.Isn't it fun to show guys up in sports. I was like a soccer champion when I was little but in school when we played kick ball all the boys would yell to move it and I would kick it way the heck out there. It was great. It sounds like you are getting a lot of exercise. It makes me feel like more of a lazy a**.I like typing in the colors.I sleep on my stomach all the time. Its how I sleep the best. I get a back ache if I sleep on my back or side.

Thanks x3
I got most of the kool aid out now, so it doesnt look as weird as it did. Thankfully it came out in time! I have to leave for chicago tomorrow morning D:
( about the water pressure ) Really? Thats fascinating. Now I dont feel like such a weakling anymores xD thanks for the info
I feel bad because Its just so awkward, I really hope I didnt give him teh wrong impression. I was just being friendly. Wow. I haven't been with a guy in a LONG time XD no matter how many times I get asked I say no... rolleyes Oh well. thanks for your comment! heart

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Posted: Thu Jun 14, 2007 10:58 am

So. Today was a lot different. I'm totally exhausted too X___X!

Today I ran a grand total of 6 miles. NOT fun.

Then we had to go into the weight room. Uhm..scary o-o
I had to use a bench press ( I think its called that ) where you lay down under the bar and then lift up a weight D: I nearly killed myself because I was soo tired so I shut my eyes which totally made me lose my balance that I had holding it up. Not to mention that it was HEAVY. I can do a lot of athletic things but weight lifting is NOT one of them. xp PLUS the coach was SO loud. He got right in my face and screamed " DONT SHUT YOUR EYES! LOOK ALIVE!" I was trying my best not to yell that I just ran six miles, but I thought it would be better not to do that... heart

I got to be the pitcher in softball. ^o^
I totally sucked when we played basketball. There's where being tall comes in handy, something that I am not.

Volleyball.. uhm.. I got hit in the head with a volleyball by the Autistic boy. Hes really strong too D: It hurt like hell crying

I saw Jason today, ( guy who asked me out ) Its reallllly awkward and I hate it! D> we were running buddies too. D: I guess not anymore... which is not fair.. >.<
I still need to pack for Chicago...-sigh- I'm bored. I can't get up. I dont want to get up.. *clings to the computer* Too..sore...to... move... Dx

-cough cough- in ADDITION

I just got back from my friends party. T'was awesome, got to chill with my friends.. x3.. lots of them XD

heh but I couldnt spend the night >.<

Played Guitar Hero II! I sooo sucked but I loved it. I dont even know how long it took me to figure out that I was holding the guitar wrong..
*sigh* I even failed the turtorials xD but meh, I almost played "Strutter" all the way through without failing! =D
Watched some sci - fi.. *horror* *trembles* who knew giant spiders could be so scary?! My friends were like laughing the whole time when the people were being mauled.. and killed.. while I, the lone scardy cat was hudled in the corner. They're going to watch Silent Lamb.. but I passed on that sad

*sigh* I'm bored... really bored... HELLO! biggrin ;;
Maybe I should go sleep..? Thats a good idea. neutral even though I'm not tired.. >>. Okay. Cheers. cheese_whine

Posted: Fri Jun 15, 2007 6:38 pm

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You lived through ALL of that? That's as much a work-out as I do when I'm with my Parkour clan home-skillets. I understand your pain, though..
Just get some rest, stay hydrated, eat protein, etc. D> Best you can do. :3

SHORTY. SCAREDY. GUITAR HERO NEWBIE!!
-Being sarcastic- x3 EXCEPT ABOUT GH. Try playing Carry Me Home on Expert... Or Institutionalized. -Shudders- I need one of those 12 year olds that play GH instead of their real guitars that they've practiced for years and so get 100% on Expert in all these crappy cover songs. ASDSF.

And if you're bored.. Write down your feelings about stuff. Wait.. Umm..
You already did that. wink
YOU HAVE FRIENDS. JEEZE. xp
Otherwise.. Music always passes time. Go get a song stuck in your head! xD

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Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 6:15 pm

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You lived through ALL of that? That's as much a work-out as I do when I'm with my Parkour clan home-skillets. I understand your pain, though..
Just get some rest, stay hydrated, eat protein, etc. D> Best you can do. :3

SHORTY. SCAREDY. GUITAR HERO NEWBIE!!
-Being sarcastic- x3 EXCEPT ABOUT GH. Try playing Carry Me Home on Expert... Or Institutionalized. -Shudders- I need one of those 12 year olds that play GH instead of their real guitars that they've practiced for years and so get 100% on Expert in all these crappy cover songs. ASDSF.

And if you're bored.. Write down your feelings about stuff. Wait.. Umm..
You already did that. wink
YOU HAVE FRIENDS. JEEZE. xp
Otherwise.. Music always passes time. Go get a song stuck in your head! xD

Lol, its apparently going to get tougher this week. But Yeah, thanks for the advice ^^

I honestly had no idea what GH was till a couple days ago, plus I dont own it- my friend does, otherwise I'd practice a little more. xD expert level?
o-o and I just got a song stuck in my head..not good D>

Posted: Sun Jun 17, 2007 6:29 pm

So.. I'm bored again, so I'm going to write about my weekend. =P

It was pretty eventful actually, and went by so quickly!

So I woke up on Friday morning at 3:00 am @.@ which was really hard, considering I was totally exhausted x.x I was like a little zombie at the airport, but anyways we flew to Chicago. xP Met up with some family and went to the wedding reception. It was kind of like a really big family get together and there were all these people who went : " Oh! You are such a young lady now.. I remember when you were Thiiiis big *holds hand down to my waist*" Even though I have absoloutely no memory of them xD

No one was there my age. I danced a little though.. that was cool x3 Plus I kept clinking my glass with the knife so the bride and groom would have to kis.. xD Such a cute tradition.. <3

Anyways then after that day we actually flew to Atlantic City, NJ surprised

We went on the boardwalk.. which was nice, it was really cold though. At least down by the water o=

All of the streets are like Monopoly names too! x3! Thats so awesome!

We ate.. and went to the arcade.. got my fortune told! xD Niiice...
Also went to the carnival area, the ferris wheel scared me. ninja

Heh then my family was cutting through Taj Mahal and Trump Palace to get where we parked and they took a bathroom break xP so I kinda wandered into the gambling area and eyeballed the slot machines..

Bad Idea D; After like half a minute a cop was by my side, escorting me out of there.. asking where my parents were? #%*&@ D<

Uhm went to Ripley's Believe it or Not. SO COOL. So many strange things in there biggrin T'was amazingly interesting.

Next day, since we were within short driving distance we stopped in Phili. Whooo Philly Cheese steak!

Uhh.. Then we came home today. x] I kinda mouthed off to the security guy though. But okay listen:

- WHY would I have to take my shoes off when they are FLIP FLOPS?! You can already see my freakin' feet!!

- Nextly, we were late for the plane and then they started going through my bag, ( apparently the spiral part of my notebook looked suspcious) So I kinda was like... " do I LOOK like a terrorist?" But hey. It was early in the morning. I should be forgiven for my crabbyness. =[

Alright. Time to take a shower, get some blueburry pie and get some Zzz's.

Cheers! cheese_whine

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Posted: Mon Jun 18, 2007 3:38 pm

Mood: Sad

Song: "We belong" Pat Benatar/ "heart breaker"

>_< Why does my whole family hate me? I should go crawl under a rock somewhere and die. It would make life a hell of a lot easier on my family. It seems like whatever I do isn't good enough, and they are always focusing on the bad. I'm the thing that's keeping them from practically the perfect family. Damnit. Even when I'm trying, it doesn't matter. THAT's what makes me the most upset. Only the bad things I do seem to get acknowledged...=/ It's not like I'm look for praise and approval but I wish they wouldn't come down so hard on me when I screw up.
Had a really messed up day. Gym wise at least. It is NOT fun to be in the middle of a 6 mile run and get your period. Nor is it fun to play soccer in the rain and drop a weight on your stomach. I HATE GYM. I WANT IT TO BE OVER. crying

My friend wants to date an 18 year old. He's bad news and she won't listen to me. No idea what to do.
I've got all of this reading to do for the next school year, I should probably get started. >_<
$@#! I keep trying to turn over a new leaf, for SO many reasons, I'm just plain unhappy with myself. >.> It just doesn't seem to be working either. I want to punch something. Really hard. Or rip something. Curl up on the couch with cheetos. Cry myself to sleep. Any of those would be good.
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Edit: I cannot believe I just did what did. I'm going to get into so much trouble o______e. Ah whatever. If I'm not on gaia for a while I'm probably grounded. -waves sadly- Bye..

Posted: Mon Jun 18, 2007 7:09 pm

-HUG-
Life is hard.. But the other choice is death. It is not worth dying just because it is hard.

There are people that care about you, and I'm sure your family does too.
You will make it through two weeks, and it'll disappear faster than you think.

Rash decisions always have bad outcomes. Your friend probably won't change their mind just because you told them to, they have to understand why not to date the guy!

Otherwise.. CAPSLOCK!! RAWR!
-ESPLODES- burning_eyes

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Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2007 10:47 am

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Life is hard.. But the other choice is death. It is not worth dying just because it is hard.

There are people that care about you, and I'm sure your family does too.
You will make it through two weeks, and it'll disappear faster than you think.

Rash decisions always have bad outcomes. Your friend probably won't change their mind just because you told them to, they have to understand why not to date the guy!

Otherwise.. CAPSLOCK!! RAWR!
-ESPLODES- burning_eyes

Thank you. =3 Rash decisions...do have bad outcomes. Verry bad outcomes. Kind of like yesterday, thankfully I ended up not getting caught. x3.

The thing is, my friend is just... really naive ( at least she is right now Dx ) and I really don't want her getting into trouble or being hurt just because she hasn't figured it out yet. I just feel like I need to do something about it, but I'm not sure if I should or what I would do.

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