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 Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 4:31 pm
Seranata shook her head sadly, "You were a child...none of that was your fault. It was the vampire, not you."
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 4:34 pm
"Even if that were true, I still feel responsible, Serenata."
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 4:38 pm
"It was a horrible thing," she said softly. "But you do not need to carry this guilt..."
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 4:40 pm
"I have carried it for so long that a part of me fears being rid of it..."
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 4:42 pm
"Why? What is to fear from losing such a thing..."
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 4:44 pm
"I fear the emptiness...a cowardly admission, now that I can feel though, I would rather feel guilt than to feel nothing at all."
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 4:47 pm
"But...you should be able to feel things now," she said slowly. "Shouldn't you?"
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 4:51 pm
"I feel more than I ever imagined I would. My diction was once again poor. I know that I will feel, but I will not have the feelings of joy or happiness to replace it with."
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 4:58 pm
His diction still sucked...and she was starting to warm up to him too...she sighed, "That's a lot to look forward to..." What, he couldn't even comprehend being happy with her? What was so wrong with her? Ok...she was pushy - all modern women are pushy, she told herself, it's not a bad thing. She knew what she wanted...at least, she knew what she hopped for. She had hopped for a lifemate that would love her, cherish her, all those corny things they were supposed to do...but she wanted someone who would respect her too. Someone to laugh with, to cry with, to live with...
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 5:02 pm
Nicholai shook his head, "I did not mean that I could not be happy with you. I am sure that I could be the lifemate you want and more. But you desire freedom, and when it comes to that, I am more of a ball and chain."
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 5:05 pm
She bit her lip realizing she'd been still partially in his mind, "You...weren't supposed to hear all that...but...why not just change?"
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 5:09 pm
"I can give you my word that I will try, but I am old and learning new things does tend to be harder when they affect my morals."
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 5:11 pm
"Your morals?" she questioned.
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 5:14 pm
"The rules that a Carpathian is given before birth. Protect the women and children always. Treasure them more than rubies or gold. Make their happiness your happiness and see that they are well taken care of."
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Posted: Mon Sep 07, 2009 5:16 pm
"Ok..." she said not understanding how that conflicted with her desires.
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