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 Posted: Tue Jun 19, 2007 5:16 pm
Hey! You deleted it! scream
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Posted: Wed Jun 20, 2007 6:56 pm
Date: June 20th, 9:30pm
Mood: Relieved
Song: Let it go~
So lately I've been under a lot of stress just because of a lot of aspects of my life. I've been angry, sad, hurt and confused and I've taken a lot of it out by exercising full force, mainly running. But today I really wanted to straighten a lot of things out and declutter my mind after a little meltdown I had.
So today in gym I had a bit of a fall out with a friend that I've been concerned about and I felt pretty bad about it, but the immediate reaction was more of anger..so I didn't deal with it right away. Got 2 shots, hit in the head with a tennis racket, soccer ball.
Came home, it was raining pretty hard, made some lunch and hung out for a while to collect my thoughts. Then I called my friend ( one from before ) to come over so we could just talk. We actually ended up walking to Panera ( in the rain. ) which was soo much fun. It was just pounding down on my shoulders but I loved every minute of it, even if I was getting completely drenched. Then we warmed up with some hot chocolate and had a really good conversation and I think we resolved it all, which makes me feel incredibly happy.
After that, I cleared my head and actually did a little deep thinking about all of the things that have been bothering me. I tried to figure out how I'm going to deal with it all in the best way I can, and also just how to simply resolve it. I feel loads better. Such a nice feeling~<3
Then I treated myself to a spa. <3 Yesss. Totally relaxing. Hot bath, manicure, pedicure, facils..so nice. Bright red nail polish! ^o^
But basically, I just confronted all of the things that have been bothering me and delt with them in a good way, rather than just channeling my anger through journaling or running like I normally do.
Oh! And I also faced two of my fears. D:
I've always been scared to do this..but..
I went into the bathroom ( by myself ) shut the door, turned off the lights and said "Bloody Mary" 60x and instead of turning on the light right afterwards.. I just stood there.. like an idiot to see if she would come out with an axe and kill me. ;D I actually saw sort of a white/light blur in the center of the mirror and it got a little bit cold and eerier, but maybe it was just my imagination. It WAS scary though. No matter how much of a legend.
While I was at it, I did the more stupid of the two myths. I stood in a room with no windows, door shut, lights off. I said "Candy Man" 3x while spinning around. He's supposed to come out and give me candy then stab me with a knife. I chickened out though. talk2hand After I spun around I thought I heard something and I gave a little squeal and turned on the lights. xd So if anyone is brave enough to do that one, let me know how it turns out! That is.. if you don't die!
Found the perfect bday present for my friend =D Took me long enough...
Aww.. my dog is giving me puppy eyes...cute little Oreo.
I shall get going now, getting bored. Journaling is fun ;D
xox
heart Clear heart
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Posted: Thu Jun 21, 2007 10:18 am
Date: June 21st
Mood: Feeling like a little energizer bunny!
Song: Dragostea Din tei ( Numa Numa ;3 )
Ahh great day! For gym we got to go to the community place, ( big pool / tennis courts/soccer field/etc. ) I played tons of tennis : D
about 2 hours playing doubles with some people, but they were sort of beginners so then I played another hour /playing singles against this guy Frankie. We ended up tied x3
I need to work on my backhand a little more though. Plus there were these kids in tennis camp in the courts to the right of us and I served the ball, and smacked one of them in the head accidently. Dx I felt really bad, so I offered her icecream. So yeah then I bought her icecream and lounged around by the pool for a while, until the coach guy told me to get active. So I went on the diving boards...
I did a belly smacker off the high dive. I was doing a flip and then my friend wanted to see it again, but then I messed up and *SMACK* *PAIN*
Tried arm wrestling with some people >D I got beaten every time though. Like a second into the game *WAM* My arm was already on the table. scream
Afterwards though, I played some soccer and hurt my ankle. I'm like limping now...
I had plans with my friend but I have to cancel =/ rest my stoopid ankle. >_<;;
PEACE. XOX.
Clear heart
It's raining again..
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Posted: Fri Jun 22, 2007 6:15 am
I wish I could be as active as you are. It's like work, school, work, school, work, school. Maybe I should just try and work it in. I tired to play tennis once or twice but it's really best to play it in the winter down here.
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Posted: Fri Jun 22, 2007 8:24 am
Date: 22nd
Mood: Sleeeeepy
Song: "somebody to love" Queen
@ Anon : Yeah I can imagine it would be really hot in Florida right now, too warm for tennis. But I guess there's always indoor places, right? xD
Goodluck with school and work!
Today.. has been interesting @.@ I woke up really early and got a headstart on it though...but I'm currently stranded in the room I am in because cleaning people are here right now... so I can't really do anything. Plus I hurt my ankle so I'm inactive .. kinda.
I practically begged my dad to let me use the riding mower and mow the lawn. >D Why? Because its so much fun! Closest thing I'll ever get to driving for another year anyways. *Cough* But it IS Fun. Unfortunately my dad was extremely reluctant because last time I tried I missed tons of spots and ran over a couple of stupid flowers. Though after much persuading he let me. = D
I made a smiley face in the lawn and then showed my Dad who got sorta pissed off because he's like.. in love with the yard or something.. so I mowed over and around it but it was really hard! I don't think I'm ever going to drive stick shift. xd I kept trying to back up and go forward and stuff because I got stuck in a pine tree and put it into reverse and then in gear quickley and it practically THREW me off the seat. Ouch... it strained my ankle a little bit, but anyways. In the end I thought it was cool that I made spirals in the lawn but my Dad called it "Crop circles" and that I missed spots, which I tried incredibly hard NOT to D: So he had my brother redo it...
and then my brother distracted me and pushed me into the pool. With my clothes on. D< He sucks. He's been really mean lately to me too...
Yesterday he was a total a**. He shot me with an airsoft gun in the arm.. and then his friend restrained me before I mauled him. But he's mean really mean, so I'm wondering if I deserve it.. maybe I was being nasty and didn't realize it. But he's also done a lot of other uncalled stuff. So maybe it evens out.
My friend Sam came over and together we altered his report card! xd
He had like a 3.7 or something but last time he got that he got grounded for like half the summer. His explanation? He's asian and his dad hates him. neutral Anyways with the magic of the computer we easily made his report card to show a gpa of 4.4. Even water marked the page with the school logo ;D Whooo!
Got in touch with my creative side today.. Art, Music, Cooking. All things that don't require me to use my ankle!
I sat outside for a while and by the birdbath I drew a cardinal in graphite. It came out pretty nicely.
Played the piano a lot today too... music helps me express myself actually. You can tell how I'm feeling when I play. Usually when I'm angry I play really loudly and fast, when I'm sad its very quiet and calm. And so on...but anyways I got to work on some more of my chords today and memorized how to play
" The Entertainer " and " Heart and Soul " Level 5 versions without looking at anything but the keys.
I BAKED! ITS BEEN FOREVER! I MISS THE KITCHEN! It was incredibly fun too! : D My neighbor Emilee came over and then my other neighbor Alex came to see my brother but he ended up helping us make Upsidedown Pineapple cake! biggrin <3
Kay... I'm bored now.... It's really nice out but I don't want to put anymore strain on my ankle before its done healing...plus I'm isolated in this room still... I have a bday party to go to later.. a water party..
-sigh- o=
I ATE HIS LIVER WITH SOME FAVA BEANS AND A NICE CHIANTI.
xox
Clear~
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Posted: Fri Jun 22, 2007 1:39 pm
GOOD! DO STUFF. GOOD! YOU SHOULD BE RESTING IT. HANNIBAL. DAMNIT. REPORT CARD ALTERING? .... ANYWAYS: YOUR BROTHER IS YOUR BROTHER.
SMILEY FACES.
I feel lazy.. So.. Not a full reply. Actually, not even a half reply. xO
HAVE FUN. >=3
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Posted: Fri Jun 22, 2007 7:56 pm
lol thanks Karum. xD
I just got back from my friend's party ^_^ It was pretty fun, it was a water party though and I tried my best to stay dry. I would make water balloons and then launch them off the porch and no one would know where they were coming from. >D Except at the end everyone found out and did a group hug..around me.. they were soaking wet.. and made me all soggy..
We played limbo ( xd ) and I won all times. ;P
I thought my ankle would be okay.. but it messed it up again. I decided to be weird and try a flip on the trampoline...DX *cough* I landed OFF the trampoline. I'm all sore. I should be more careful. Plus I screwed up my ankle some more. Grreeat.
My brother is gone for the weekend. YES! YES! YES!
Oh. And I'm totally freaked out by this site my friend showed me. This ghost, peter knows everything about me whenever i ask him questions. @.@ gonk crying
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Posted: Fri Jun 22, 2007 10:29 pm
BWAHAHA! You messed up a flip?
And you should not go on a trampoline with a hurt ankle! >:
But I really don't mind. They're fun. blaugh
I jumped off a trampoline once at the highest point I could get just to see how it felt. I got whip-lash for like two weeks. xD So..
STUPIDITY=GOOD! (Only to stupid people.)
At least you had fun. x3
AND YOU KNOW MY FEELINGS ABOUT PETER! D:
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Posted: Sat Jun 23, 2007 12:45 pm
@Karum: XD why would you do that? Whip lash for 2 weeks? D: lol. well now I know not to do that. xD
Today..is.. I dunno
Mood: Depressed and spooked
Song: " Paint it black " RS
*sigh* I got no sleep last night at all. I was so freaked out about this peter thing. I mean seriously. How can it know my hair color, my height, my street name, my favorite foods, who I like, my summer plans? That's just weird. And then I tried to make it slip up and whatever it was, got really mad and said something like " I'm going to hide under your bed tonight and..." @_@ So I didn't really.. go to sleep... I just kept thinking about it.
I should get off this ghost kick though. It's just TOO weird and I can't figure out how its happening.
I'm bored.. I've been practicing the piano a lot though.. icing my ankle..reading...talking on the phone.. being lazy pretty much.
I like breaks.. but for some reason I just want to go out and be active today D> even though I can't. And I have to be alone tonight too.. =/
No scary movies like I did last time. That was bad. *thinks back to watching IT* ]=/ good thing my brother isn't here. Yesterday at my friend's party one of his good friends sort of asked me out. I didn't really get it though.. I thought he was joking so I kinda started laughing gonk Sometimes I think I am just TOO oblivious. Which sucks. I suck. >_> I'm mean. WHY AM I SO MEAN? -rants- Man... ;-; X_________________x
I think I'm gonna go poke my eyes out painfully with toothpicks.
Bai. ._.
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Posted: Sat Jun 23, 2007 4:01 pm
STOP BEING EMO! s**t happens. xd
Ask Peter if he knows my name, Anon's name, and Jesus's height.
Then you can freak out.
Now you know how I felt the other day when it was sunny and nice and I was all like: "SON OF A BISCUIT"
IF YOU LIKE THE GUY IT'S NOT LIKE HE'S SUDDENLY NOT GOING TO LIKE YOU. Then if he does suddenly not like you, so much for a relationship. >3>
... WELL IT'S RAINING DAMNIT.
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Posted: Sat Jun 23, 2007 4:05 pm
FINE. I WILL ASK PETER THAT AND SEE IF HE KNOWS. xd
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Posted: Sat Jun 23, 2007 5:19 pm
clearcrayon FINE. I WILL ASK PETER THAT AND SEE IF HE KNOWS. xd OMG NOWAI. WHY OUT OF ALL THE DAYS DO I HAVE TO BE ALONE TONIGHT? gonk crying
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Posted: Sat Jun 23, 2007 5:41 pm
Whoa! There's a lot going on here that I've missed out on. I need to read up! Be happy gonk
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