well, my father called me some days ago, and asked me if I wanted to travel with him.
this is a highly unexpected thing to hear from my father, as well as it's obvious why.
unexpected, because he never have been too joyful about using money.
obvious because he can influence me with the world as he sees it, and all kinds of things he is thinking.

it seems he's open to travel about anywhere, and I know that if he wants to, he's the greatest guy in the world.
my problem is that I'm hopefully gonna get a foster family, and he want's me to move over to him. I will be able to make friends and do stuff(my mother doesn't let my anywhere) but I can't choose religion, and if he were to find out something like that under or right before the trip, he'd do things to make my feel guilty, and try to convince me to move to him instead.

and I have been to Russia once, in a small city(living about 20 000 people there) but just two people there could talk English, so I never got to communicate much with anyone. and I kinda like Russian people, so I want to go there again.
and I think I were dreaming about being in a bigger Russian city, where I could talk with people, and I think it was a good feeling being there, inside the dream. but I'm not sure that's what I was dreaming at all, I'm just guessing.

but that still leaves me frustrated with my father. and I just, well, think it was a good thing to say it to someone.