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You will learn to love again, and the pain will go away. In time your feelings for the person will die and you will come to terms with reality. Just remember that after all this passes you wont ever heal completely. So remember to remind yourself of everything that was good and you will see you are probably changed for the better. Always remember to than that person in your mind for what they taught you, and most off all don't ever feel that its was time wasted. Your first love is a learning experience and a time to grow. So let yourself grow from it.

Thank you guys, all of this has helped me. I just feel really weird sometimes. And I know It's not a bad thing but sometimes I really hate that my first love was with a girl...my best friend. I love her to death. And we are really really really close, if we were any closer we would be the same person. lol Sometimes I think we know more about each other then we know about ourselves...We just shared so much...And I hate it because you always hear about people talking about their first love and I'm afraid that if the topic ever comes up I'm going to feel very awkward talking about it. And I don't like that. I just hate how some people act towards gay and bi people. It really bothers me that I can't express who I truly am without someone saying or doing something very rude. I just wish there was somewhere where I could just be myself...

Sorry that's a bit long...I just feel like venting right now. And I'm glad I have somewhere to vent. Thank you for that. I'm just going through a lot right now and I'm not exactly sure how to handle it all...

You should feel not shame in the fact that your first love was a girl. Sure people will have a problem with it but that is their problem and not yours. My first love was when I was 9 and she was the cutest thing ever, we dated for years, until she died in my arms at 15... I never forget her and I proudly tell people that I indeed did fall in love with a girl when I was in elementary school and no matter how much they don't believe it that will not change what actually happened. Her loss hurt for many years and it took me until I was 28 to find my soulmate and start to actually heal those old wounds, but I never forgot and I even wrote a novel about those years of love that we shared as children.

So hold on to that love you once shared, no matter how painful it was there were more then likely beautiful moments that you shared and do not listen to what foolish minded people say, for they have will never understand the true power of being in love.

jaa ne

Kat

Love is an experience that will never leave you. Remember, no matter how sad it may seem, and although terrible things happen with objects of love and love turned to objects, it's not actual love that hurts. Love is something that defies all rationality, and if it had a strictly rational explanation, it would cease to be what it is. But even though it will never leave you, it doesn't mean you can't find a new source of it.