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 Posted: Sat Aug 11, 2007 1:36 pm
SKIP TO BOLD FOR DISCUSSION PTS =D
You know, it's been a long, long, long, long, long, long (et cetera), time since I've been 100% cured of depression. My random roundabouts of it, despite my happier times in life were... bad. Of course. But I've been... free of it for a long time now. I have a sweetums that doesn't make me feel like I'm obligated to do this and that. We're both the types to not be bothered with others. (That is to say, I don't care if such and such many customers were a problem, and/or my siblings/parents are troublesome. I do care at the immediate time and small time after, but I forget about it and go on. So does she.)
We're not... "desperately madly crazy"-fantasy-esque in love. Though, our moments alone are truly wonderful. Blah blah.
What am I driving at?
I finally feel like I'm the center of my "story". As if I'm the main character in my movie. All that. Everything feels possible again. I've felt like this before, true, but it's been faaaaar too long.
I actually have optimism. I believe in myself. And it shows so much. I have increased my ability to learn my job/do it by ... pssh, Iunno, probably ten fold, easily. Feeling good has made life... easier. lawlz? True story. Going to work doesn't suck. It can be busy, and I do make mistakes once in a while, but, that's life. Everyone makes mistakes. I'm learning how to deal with people better and better, cause, really, what are they going to do? Complain? Etc. You know. That whole thing. ;D
Do you feel like you're just a side character in life? Just going on what will happen... or do you feel in control? Have you had lapses in such feelings... and what has been their effects?
Does this sound like some therapy session? xD
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Posted: Sun Aug 12, 2007 2:49 pm
First off, I know exactly how you feel, as I have been diagnosed with dementia and bipolar disorders. It's tough to know that you aren't always how you want to be. I have fought hard, and it seems so have you, to get back what you claim as rightfully yours.
Oh, and don't forget: being the hero comes with a price; you will always drown before your job is truly done.
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Posted: Sun Aug 12, 2007 7:46 pm
Just so we're clear, I'm the most important person.
Ever.
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Posted: Mon Aug 13, 2007 11:44 am
Setzer ~Another~ Just so we're clear, I'm the most important person. Ever. biggrin *SALUTES* ARE YOU CHRIST REBORN OR THE ANTICHRIST?
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Posted: Fri Aug 17, 2007 4:53 am
yeah i think i know what you mean
i think i'm going through the same thing
heart
... and ummm *cough* ...
SETZER FOR PRESIDENT!!!!!
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Posted: Fri Aug 17, 2007 11:09 am
I can completely understand on how you once were. It took me a terrible break up to actually smack me in the face to be happier with what's going on.
Life for now is just a soap opera, like my signature says). I feel like a side character, but I don't wait for things to come to me. If I want something enough, after a proper mulling options over, then I go out and get it. Or at least make the effort and show it. So I switch from being the main to just an extra quite a bit, depending on the situation.
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