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lets see here...my life is s**t my husband is an a** hole and wont admit it and it seems like the only good thing in my life right now is my daughter who is 5 weeks old. sometimes i just want to die. i wonder if there really is someone out there for me that will respect me.
NOTE: I doubt any of you know this, but Anna is my older sister that had me arrested for attacking her boyfriend when I didn't even hit the ********. She abandoned her whole life in Oregon to live with the guy she said I attacked.
I would especially like to point out the part that says i wonder if there really is someone out there for me that will respect me.[ She did have people who respected her. They live in Oregon. She had a caring family that looked out for their kind. She had a church who accepted people for who they were. She knew half the town personally and were on good terms with almost all of them. So what happened? How could she have a falling out with ALL of those people? A rumor about her perhaps? No, there was no rumor. If there was a rumor some people would still be by her. Here is what happened in my eyes.
She met a guy online. She became obsessed with him. He was the first guy who actually treated her with more affection than just as a friend, and she became addicted to him. She became so addicted to him that she just dropped everything for him. She abandoned her family, her friends, her church, her whole life in Oregon with people she knew for years and years just so she could live with a guy in Michigan that she hadn't even known a year. Her problem isn't finding someone who will respect her. Her problem is that she threw them all away.
Even towards the end of the school year her friends were asking me how she was doing. There are still people here that care about her. Just a few weeks ago I went down town to get a prescription. On my way home her friend Penny asked me how she was doing. Anna doesn't even talk to me at all so there's not much info that I care to give out.
Now we get to my reaction of seeing that she suffers. Considering all the hate my heart has been filled with you think I would be happy right? I would get this sense of satisfaction knowing that I was right about everything? I would be especially gleeful that she gets what's coming to her? No, I don't feel that. I don't feel any sympathy for her either. She threw me away like I was nothing, then when I tried to patch up old wounds she wanted nothing more than to blame me. For this reason I don't sympathize for her, but I'm still not gleeful about any of this s**t. Right now I feel neutral.
