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I have a book I'm wrighting that I'd like to put into a movie but it isn't finished yet, it's rathur dark, suicid, abusive father, teenage run away, stuff like that, somthings taken from my own life(not the abusive fathur tho, he wouldn't hurt a fly...well maybee he'd hurt a guy...but nay if he did somthing to me! smile ) but yea


I woke up with a jolt.s**t I slept in!My dads gunna kill me!!I ran to my dresser nd pulled out my fvorite black tank-top nd a pair of blue jeens.
I threw my pjs on the floor nd pulled up my thong.I wraped my bra around myself then threw on my tank-top nd jeens.I put on deotarent nd started with
my make-up.When I was done I brushed my hair nd rushed downstairs.I grabbed a peaice of toast nd ran to put on my flip-flops when I herd my dads
footsteps creepng behind me.I froze in fear unaware of what to say.I slowly turned on the spot to see my dads purple face staring at me.He was breathing
deeply.All I could manage to say was a whimpery "I'm sorry!"but he didn't listen.His fist came pounding toward my head nd I ducked out of the way.He
punched the door instead of me.He started yelling nd swearing but I didn't listen to what he was saying.I just foceced on getting out!He swung again nd
made contact with my jaw, one of my teeth fell out followed by a larg amont of blood.Tears came to my eyes but I had no time to cry!I needed to get
out!I spit out the blood quickly forming in my mouth.Another fist came flying toward my stomach and made contact.I grunted nd fell forward as a
fist landed on my back knocking me down further.I turned over to face him.I couldn't help the tears from coming anymore my mascara ran nd I just
whep't.He went to punch me again but before he could I lifted my foot into the air and made a direct hit to his crouch.He doubled over and almost fell on me.
I rolled to the side to avoide the large falling man.I got up nd went to run.I grabbed my shoes nd purse nd ran down the street to the robbins.I go there
whenever I need to clean myself up before school.I asked for the key and the casher smiled at me.She usually makes people buy somthing to get the key
but she always let me in!I went to the bathroom nd washed away the blood and make-up.I reaplied my make-up nd fixed me hair.I grabbed the key
and walked out.I handed the key back to her nd smile nd thanked her.Now I had to go to school!

I walked the 8 blockes to school all alone, almost collapsing in pain.I grabbed the bottle of tylenol I keep in my purse nd grabbed to out.I
pulled out my water from my back-pack nd swolled them down.I hoped I'd be out of pain by the time I got to school.When I arrived I was still
hurting but there was nothing more I could do.I walked into class 20 minutes late and looked embarrestly at the teacher who just smiled nd
waited for me to take my seat before continuing on with her lesson.I could hear the other kids talk about the bruises on my face and the blood
on the shirt I had forgotten to change.I asked Miss Hukum if I could use the washroom nd she allowed me to leav.I walked into the room nd tore
off my shirt.I exzamened the bruises my dad left on me, they were fresh but allready purple!They were going to get worse before healing too!
I put on a black low-cut tank-top that I keep in my purse for occasions like thise.I looked in the merrior at my fat body!The nurse says I'm too skinny
nd need to gain wait but I kno I'm obeast!

After spending another lonely day at school I had to returne home to my father.I slowly nd quietly krept into the house trying to be as
invisable as I was at school.I took off my flip-flops nd noticed my dads shoes were missing,I could relax!I grabbed the T.V. clicker nd srawled
out on the couch.I turned on my favorit program nd tried to relax,but I never know when my dad would walk back threw that door!Every noise made
me jump because it could be him!With how we left things this morning I was in for a good beating so I wasn't exactly looking forward to his
arrival home!After five hourse of being home alone I began to worrie!He's usualy home before it starts to get dark because even though hes
an abusive father he doesn't like me home alone after dark, my mom left after I was born so she couldn't be her to take care of me so he
usualy was!

I have three little sisters,one is 4 and named Julie,one is 7 and named Rachel,and one is 12 and named Kylie, all four of us have
different moms wich is fun!That was sarcazim!I also have 7 brothers!Three are my birth moms so I'v never met them!One is 11 and named James, one
is 15 and named Jaymey Craig hes my twin!!Oh by the way my names Jamie-Lyn!But anyway, my mom seperated me nd my twin at birth, wenever she has
kids with someone she keeps it if it's a guy and if it's a girl it's the guys kid!She thinks boys are easier to take care of!So I got ponded off
on my dad and have never met my own twin!When I'm sixteen wich is only three months and eleven days away I get to meet him!I can't wait!I get to
meet my mom and my three brothers including my twin!Oh,and my other brother with my mom is Mavrick and hes seventeen.My other brothers all live
at my dads with me and my sisters but every other week they live at there moms house.This is one of those weeks.The brothers that live with me are Josh
14,George 15,Daniel 16 and Erin 17.As you can see my dad had alot of girls for a while there!!Kylie and Josh are brother and sister, and Rachel
and Erin are brother and sister but there all just my half siblings besides Jaymey Craig!

At elevin I thought I'd call the the five moms to see if any of them had herd from my dad, when they all said they hadent I begain to worrie more!
I went to the kitchen and some pea soup,I was STARVED!After eating I did the dishes and tieded the house,dad will usually go easier on me if I help
out around the house!When I was about to start walking up stairs to chang for bed the phone rang.I went to the table in the hallway and answered it.It was
Kylie and Josh's mom.

"Hey Jamie,it's Beth,is your dad home yet?"
"no"
"Do you have any idea were he'd be?"
"no"
"I'm coming over!"
"Why?"
"I'm not letting you sleep there alone!!"
"relax!I'v done it MANY times!"
"Yea but..."
"Don't worrie I'll be fine!"
"Alright,but if ANYTHING happens CALL ME!I don't care if it's four a.m. CALL!Okay?"
"Alright I will, thanks for the call!"
"No problem hunn!"

All the moms treat me like one of there kids thats why she called to see if I was ok!I was all of theres step daughter at one point or another so
I geuss they still think of me as a daughter wich is nice!Beth is my favorit!She lets you do anything with-in reason!Like my dad she lets her kids
smoke,and buys them for them, and drink, and get high!It's nice that my dads like that too!I don't kno what I'd do with-out my weed and smokes!

I went upstairs and put on pj bottoms and a white tank-top,I like tank tops,I took off my bra and went to the bathroom to wash my face.I went back to my
bedroom while climbing over mountins off cloths and toys,the room is mine,Rachel,Kylie's and Julie's!The boys have a room for the four of them too.I sat on
my bed looking out the window at all the cars driving past,I hoped one would be my dads,but none were.I finally fell asleep after going to the bathroom
seven times and having four glasses of warm milk!

WHAM!A fist hit me in my jaw and joilet me awake!OW!I saw my dads purple face hovering over my bed,he was panting wieldly and yelling.WHERE WERE YOU!?I
yellled at him.Before I could reply I got a fist in the ribs!I grabbed the bag I keep all my cloths and wordly possesions in and ran for the door.I keep the bag
so running away will be easy!I ran down the stairs as my dads enormis body pounded behind me.I grabbed my sneekers and ran out the door befor putting them
on!I ran to the allyway down the street from my house.I threw my bag up on a dumpster then ballenced myself on a wooden box and jumped to the dumpster.I
pulled myself up then grabbed my bag and purse and climed the fire escape ladder attached to the side of the store.I climed to the top of the building and
looked out on the streets below.My dad was just entering the allyway.I covered my mouth so he wouldn't hear my panting.He searched the ally for me to no
success.since it was dark he couldn't see the ladder above the dumpster,I knew it was there already!I make escape planes from every room in the house
at everytime of lighting so when I need to run I can!

I pulled out my pack of smokes and lit one.When it was down I put it out and lit a joint.after that I had another cigarett then lay on my back and
looked at the stars,my dad had gone to try and find me further down the street then gave up and went home.It was midnight so I had a few hourse befor I'd
have to leav wich was good because I was sure if I moved I'd fall off the roof because I was way too high!

I waited till the sun had just started to rise to get off the roof,I had set the alarm on my watch for 5 a.m. nd had cigarett before packing up and
heading out.I went through all back allys incase my dad had called me in missing to the police.I didn't kno where to go!I had no where to go!The step
moms love me but they'll tell my dad in fear of him finding out and hurting them or there children!Dad only beats me, he's hitt the other ones acouple
times but not as much as me!When he hitts the other ones they tell there moms and they threaten to call the athorities,they never do in fear of who he'll
send after them!So I wondered the back allys untill 11a.m. when I figured it would be safe to go home!Dad goes to work around 10 a.m. he owns the buisness
so he comes and goes as he pleases.I went in the house and no one was there!I went to my room set my alarm for 2 oclock and fell asleep!

I woke up with a joilt.I hate how loud my alarm is!I packed a few more things in my bag, peted my cat's,ate some food and packed some for later then
I left.I went back to the roof top and went behind the chimney so my dad wouldn't see me when he came home from work!I lit up a joint and smoked it, then
had a smoke and layed down.I grabbed my mp3 player from my purse and listend to music and suntaned enjoying being high until the sun went down.I needed
to find somewhere to sleep!I couldn't sleep on the roof again because the rats had begun to notice me and my food!So I hoped down the ladder with all
my stuff and took off down the street.But where to go?I only had two friends ones my ex bf but were right tight friends and ones just a friend,shes not even
really my friend!She spred rumors about me around the school and helped to ruen my life but I'm not suposed to kno!We act all friendly around each other and
whatever but secretly we both hate each other!Her mom would tell my dad if I showed up there and same with my ex bf's parents!So where to go?

I wandered down the street in my own little world listening to my music.I decided that whereever I ended up I would sleep there.I sat down on the sidewalk
and had my thired joint of the day then a cigarett then continued down the rode laughing at nothing in particulare and dancing to my trippy techno music!When
I was too tiered to walk anymore I decided I really had to find somwhere to sleep!I walked to the end of the street and looked both ways.There wasn't a single
car on eather street but I did see my school!I went out behind it and into the back ally.I went into a narrow path about 10 feet in.I walked 15 or 20 feet
then came to a small enclosed cirle.It was me and my friends secret club house when we were younger and we use it now to skipp class.Only three or four people
know about it.I sat down my bag and used it as a pillow.I didn't have to set my alarm because the school bell would wake me up and I was too tiered and high
to even see straght!

BBBRRRRIIIINNNNGGGG!!!!!I joilted up after the bell went I sat up and rubbed the sleep from my eyes.I got changed,did my make-up,brushed my hair,took a piss
furthurinto the bush,then lit a joint.I hate being sobber!I had about 30 joints.10 on me and 20 at home.My dad buys me 100 bucks worth at a time wich
is 200 hundredjoints.If I ran outa weed I could take from my dads stash...he'd never notice!Then I had a cigarett and turned on my mp3 player.

five minutes before break I walked to the front of the school with my purse on my shoulder.I left my bag to look less like a dork.I wated for some of
my friends to come out for a smoke,most of my friends arn't realy good friends there more like accatenses.We hang out and everything but usually
at school.I'v onlybeen over to a couple of there houses a couple of times.

"JAMIE!!"
I looked to my left and my friend Sammy was running towards me"Hey Sammy!"
"Where were you yesterday?"
"You can't tell ANYBODY but I ran away from home."I looked embaresly at my feet"
"I can see why.Are you okay?"
She was talking about the cut on my forhead and my black eye."I..I'm fine...wana skip with me for the day?I got weed!!"
"You know I can't say no to weed!!"
"HAHA lets go!"

So me nd Sammy walked into the "cove" as we call it nd lit up a joint.Then we lay on our backs watching the clowds while having our after toke smokes
when suddenly she jumped up nd screeched.
"WHAT?!?"I said half excited half anoyed.
"I have an idea!"
"WOW!You mean you have brains?!?!"
"SHUT UP!I have an idea that will help you!"
"I'm lisening!"I said getting more intreaged by the second.
"You can live at my house!!!!"
"HAH!Your mom will turn me in in a second!"
"Her nd my dad are outa town for the next three weeks!!!Thats should give you enuff time to figure things out!!"
"Are you serious?!?!What if they have someone chek in on you or somthing!"
"HAHA!Kellys my "babysitter" We have none stop partys and s**t she won't rat you out!"
"OH MY GOD!YOUR AWSOME!!!"I got up nd hugged her!!
"Well get your stuff and lets go!!"
"Okay!Can we stop at my place nd get some smokes nd weed?"
"Um...let me think...DUH!It's on the way anyway!"

So I grabbed my bag nd the two of us stumbled off to the front of the school flipping off people looking at us through the windows with one of those
"shouldn't you be in school" looks!I hate when people judge me!A few teachers glared out at us too but we flipped em off nd continued on our way trying
to stay standing!When we finaly got to my house I cheked to see if my dads shoes were there...they wern't!I went to my room nd putt my carten of smokes
in a grocery bag.I grabbed my other 20 joints nd putt them in my duffle bag to make them less noticable.We walked downstars to raid the fridge to get rid
of our "munchies" and found a note!!

"Dear Jamie-Lyn

I bet u'll find thise cuz I kno u nd u always come to raid the house when u run away!Theres some weed in the usual place for u nd 400 hundred dollers
I figure that should last u a bit.Don't come home for atleast a week or two cuz I don't want to see that ugly face of urs but I'm still ur fathur so
I figure I should support u even if u r a b***h.When u run outa stuff come back nd right me a note nd I'll leave u whatever u need.Theres also a pack of
smokes with the weed incase ur out nd some alchohol.Nobodys looking for u so don't be scared nd I'll see u later hunny I love you

-Dad."

I was flabbergasted at first but hey he gave me what I needed so me nd Sammy went to the drugg cabnit nd grabbed the stuff.He left me 3 bottles of vodca
Some horse raddish nd clamata juice(to make bloody marries) a bottle of Tequilla and 2 bottles of rum!!!We lodded them into duffle bags nd took off.

"Shouldn't you be in school young lady?'Kelly said trying not to smile.
"Shut up kelly!"Sammy said while laughing.
"Oh my god Jamie!!!HI!"
"Jamies gunna live her for a while k?"
'Ok...I can see why...ur dad again?"
"yea...but hey I brought alchohole nd weed!!!"
"LETS PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

The next 3 weeks were just blurrs of things.I slept with 7 guys I don't kno, one of atleast 10 times!We had a none stop party for the three weeks!Everytime
We ran outa stuff I gave Kelly money or raided my house for more.It was the best 3 weeks of my life!!I could go home now...but I didn't want to!My bruises
had healed but I had a few new ones from beating off ugly guys nd falling down cuz too intoxicated!I had to leave here but I didn't want to go home...but I
had no choice!So I paccked up what was left of my alchohole nd weed nd boogied on out before Sammy's parents came home.Before I reeched the door Kelly spoke
up.

"Hey Jamie...if u want after I talk to Sammy's parents u can come to my house!!"
"Really?!?!"
"YEA!I live on my own so noone can say u can't!!Heres my key I live on38 Duffrin, let urself in nd make urself confurtable!I'll be over in a bit!"
"Your my savior Kelly!"I hugged her nd kissed her..were both bi so it was okay!Then I went out the door and went to her house.it was just an apartment but
one door had "Kelly's Pad, Party people ONLY If ur wit da Fuzz F-OFF!!!" on it so I figured it was hers!!

After sitting alone in the dark quiet apartment for over 3 hourse Kelly stepped through the door.She seemed slightly upset but I didn't know why.She was
carrieing 3 bottles.They oviously contained alchohol but I couldn't tell what kind.She placed them on the table nd turned on a light.They were vodca,rum,and
tequila.She then pulled 2 bottles of cola from another bag along with clamata juice and horse raddish for my bloody marrie's!As she emptyd the bags on the
table she occaisionaly whiped underneath her eyes.When my curiousity couldn't stand back anylonger I ask:

"Hey...um...are you ok...?"
"Uh...yea...mmhhmmm...I'm...fine...just perfect...now lets chug some alchohole so we can't feel feelings anymore shall we?!?!"
"Yes to the booze...but you have to tell me whats wrong!?!?!"
"I can't ok...I'm sorry...now lets drink!"And she waised her glass in the air nd me nd her clinked glasses and the drinking began!

In the following 4 hourse 5 guys came over,Mark 17,Andrew 19,Sam 16,Markus 14,and Masin 17.6 girls came over aswell,sammy 15(who snuk out of her house to
make it) Keltie 15, Reba 17, Lisa 19, Aslee 20, and Shelly 18.I had sex with Masin and Mark and made-out with the other 3 boys with sexual touching involved.
I made-out with all the girls and went furthur with Sammy and Kelly!After the alcholhole and weed started to run low and it got late everyone wondered home
except me, I stayed with Kelly.
We watched several old hilarious movies(well hilariouse to drunken high people...most people would cry instead of laffing!But after awhile they began to bore
us so we had some "fun" together, A.K.A. girl on girl action!But after we wern't horney any more Kelly decided to go to bed.So we kissed goodnight and I layed
down on her couch, but before she left she said "Arn't you cummin'"so I followed her and layed down beside her in bed and fell asleep.

I woke up to a loud crash...at first I was frightend it was my dad but then I rembered that he wasn't going to be seerching for me anymore!So I got up and
walked to the washroom where the noise came from.I herd sobbing and tried to open the door but it wouldn't budge!

"Kelly are you ok?"
"GO AWAY!I love you sweety but It's too late for me!I don't want you to see whats behind this door, just wait 10 minutes then call a "meat wagon" but don't
come in here!!"As she was saying that her blood started to seep under the door!I ran to the phone and dialed 911!As I was telling them what was going on I tried
to break down the door.As I tried Kelly yelled at me not to but I zoend her out and continued to break it down.When I finally did I saw kelly laying on the ground.
She wasn't moving anymore!She was just laying there!I droped the phone and fell down beside it.At first I was angry at her for doing this to me but then
I figured that was selfish and just staired.Not a thought in my mind.I just staired dumbfounded.Her arms had a long deep cut up each of them and many all up
and down her arms sidways.She had tears and blood covering her face and hair.She didn't look like Kelly at all.Kelly always looked perfect!Not a hair out of
place!She had cuts all over her face even!They bled down her face and onto to her chest and as I followed the blood lines down I noticed that her chest was
bare!Not naked...but bare she had chopped off her own breasts!What could possibly make somone do that!As I followed the blood down further I noticed that
her legs were bent and spread open like in the position to have sex but the site up her skirt wasn't a pretty one!She had cut off her own clitorous and it
looked like she shoved a knife in her v****a and spun it around.Blood was running everywhere even I was covered in it and I was a foot or two away!I follwed
the blood further afraid of what I would see!She had cut all up and down her legs every wich way you could imagin.Her legs were nothing but cuts!Even her
feet had cuts on them!As I took an overal look at her and not just parts of her I noticed that her once beuitiful long blond hair had been cut shorter than
her ears and was spread around the bathroom.Then I noticed...she had no ears!She had choped them off to!I couldn't imagin what she must have gone through
to do thise!

As I nelt there unaware of what to do or what to say I vagly noticed the 3 medics run in the room.They pushed me out of the way and nocked me over.I fell
over into the giant pool of blood beside me but I didn't move.I just laid on my side staring at her in disbelief.The medics grabbed her throut to check for
a pulse.They got one!She was still parshly alive!She could live!I stood up up and ran to the ambulence with them.They allowed me to ride with her and I held
her hand and cried while the put pressure on her cuts and put blood into her.

When we got to the hospital they took her to the O.R. and I was forced to call her mother then wait in the waiting room.After I told her mother she was sighlent
for 15 minutes then she hung up.6 minutes later she had made the 15 minute drive to the hospital.She demanded to see her daughter but they told her she would have
to wait.I held her hand and told her she would be fine while we sat in the waiting room crying.

3 hourse later the doctore told us to come in.We went to a room and saw a body lieing under a blanket, we all knew it was her.Miss Frinch fell to the ground
crying and I went to the seat beside Kelly and told her I loved her and goodbye!I arose from my seat trying not to cry anymore than I already was and told
Miss Frinch she could have the seat.

She sat beside KElly and held her stiff, cold, dead hand and whispered to her.Most of it I couldn't make-out all I herd was about 5 "I love you sweety's"
and that was all that mattered.Then she arous and grabbed ahold of the blanket and slowly began to lift it off her.

"You don't want to do that!" I said sofly but firmly.
"But she's my daughter, I must see her to say goodbye!"
"Trust me you don't need that image in your head and she wouldn't have wanted you to see it!"
"I kno that. I know I'll regret it...but I have to!"
"If you must!"
And slowly she pulled the blanket off her doughter, she only got it as far as her chest when she had had enuff and covered her again.She looked like she
might puke, if it was because of the sight of because she was so upset I'll never know but none the less she puked all over the floor beside her daughters
body.After she apoligiesed a few times we walked out of the building and into her car.Nothing was said.We just sat and cried.It was never said where we were
driving but we both knew.

When we arrived at Kelly's apartment I shut the bathroom door and told her if she was going to look in there to atleast wait until later!We wen't in her
bedroom and found the note she had wrighten, it said:

(I havn't written that part yet)


After reading it we decided it was time to look in the bathroom.Outside the blood had stained the floor.It went all the way down the 5 foot halway and into the living room.
We slowly opend the door and braiced ourselfs.When the door was opened Miss Frinched gasped, covered her mouth and fell to the the floor crying more than I
thought humanly possible.I look around the room.Her walls were covered in her blood, both splattr and hand print.Even her cieling was covered in blood wich was
dripping on us.Her de-bodied breasts sat jsut below the blood covered mirror.They just layed there...the nipples lay in the sink...she must have cut them off first!Her hair
covered the room,drowning in her blood and stiking to the walls.here ears lay on the floor on both sides of where she had been sitting.it was the most disturbing
site I had ever imagagined in my life.

I couldn't look anymore.I walked to her bedroom and grabbed a new pair of clothes and changed.I putt my other ones in a plastic bag then in my duffle
bag.I went to the kitchen and grabbed my purse.I said goodbye to Miss Frinch and that I was sorry!I kissed her on the fore head like Kelly used to and walked
out of the apartment.I walked up to the school and into the cove.I took a few of the pictures we had taken in the past few days out of my bag and looked
for ones of Kelly.I tapped them up on a tree, we had a tarp there because thats were we keep our toilet paper so it would keep dry if it rained.I wrot"WE
Love you Kelly!<33" on a peice of paper and tapped it above the 4 pictures of her.I grabbed my favorite on of her out of my bag.She was sitting on the couch,
smiling and laffing.I was beside her.?Her arm was around me and we were cuddling.I kissed the picture and held it to my heart while I cried.I placed it back in
my bag.And then in honour of Kelly I lit up a joint.I smoked 6 joints so I wouldn't be able to feel any sort of feelings then pasted out in the bush.




thats the beging of it...I kno it's not the best but eh I enjoyed wrighting it smile I kno it's long nd I don't expect anyone to acually read the whole thing but if u do give me opinions if u would...I kno this forum isn't really for that but u said ideas for plays or movies nd thats my idea for a movie...it still needs work I kno but this is just the first draft nd not even finished razz

Jessielyn? Are you O.K.? Were tortured in another life?

>.< Never mind......