Dark Christmas

Field of green grass covered in snow,
And trees of green branches move with cold winter's blow,
And a small, wooden home fit for two, it seems,
Laid hidden, perfectly tucked away in my dreams.

Snowflakes fall down from the beautiful white sky,
And the birds soon will return to me a sweet lullaby,
And when the snow melts, harmony we will find.
Atleast, those are the images that play in my mind.

A once happy field now dead from the gloom,
And a once full-grown tree now will never again bloom,
And a once proud home, now never to be,
Shown vividly and clear in my reality.

The snow has not fallen and the sky has turned grey,
And the birds refused to return to me today,
And the world has turns to dark and no peace is to be found.
These are the images of the world of which I'm bound.

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas.
I'm dreaming of a white Christmas.
I'm dreaming of a white Christmas.
But all I ever receive are dark skies.


Sweet Lullaby

All through the night
You would stay near by
To help me to sleep
My sweet lullaby

We loved each other so
Unlike any other
We would spend all our time
Reminding one another

You've always been there
When I laugh, when I cry
You were the kindest of all
My sweet lullaby

I miss you so much
Why did you go
Off into the twilight,
Under the moons glow?

I never had a chance
To tell you goodbye
So I'll say it now
My sweet lullaby

My sweet lullaby
My love will never end
Goodbye my sweet
Goodnight my friend


Perfection

I do all you say
I try my best to become
Perfect in your eyes

But I fail sometimes
Am I a disappointment?
I am not perfect.

You don't understand
How hard I attempt to be
Good enough for you

You pressure me so
That I sometimes feel alone
That I'm not useful

I try to be good
Good enough for you to love
But I see I'm not

I know you hate it
When I cry or am saddened
Am I banned to feel?

You make me feel low
So low that nothing seems real
That nothing is true

Even when I'm good
You have always got to find
Something wrong with me

I will never be
The perfect little angel
You've dreamed and hoped for

Where have you been?

I never thought I'd see the day.
I never thought I'd see the night.
I never thought my heart of darkness
Would learn to shine such brillant light.

I never thought I'd find such warmth.
I never knew it was lost in cold.
I never knew my heart would take over
After all these years my mind controlled.

I never knew such good could happen.
I never forgot the bad that did.
I never thought to show myself
During the time my soul I hid.

I never knew I could have value
I never thought that I was worthwhile
I never knew the beauty you made me
When all this time I thought I was vile.

You always make me laugh and grin
You always help me during ssorrow and strife.
You always make me wonder the same cliche,

"Where have you been all my life?"