I always just get sucked back down.
I had been doing pretty well up until last week. There's nothing really happening that's out of the norm, lately.. but I guess it's a build up of HUGE events happening in the semi-near future that have been causing this sudden "OMGWTFICANTBREATHORSLEEPIMFREAKINGOOOOUT" stuff.
Needless to say, I had a pretty major anxiety attack on Friday.
Last Wednesday and Thursday nights I got literally no sleep because I was having trouble breathing. Being an asthmatic, I just thought I was slowly having another asthma attack. It wasn't bothering me during the day until the middle of my German class Friday morning. I was just kind of wheezing a bit and thought I could take my inhaler again and be good.. but then my chest tightened and my throat closed off and I just couldn't breath at all. I freaked out and Robert (my boyfriend) and I ran to the campus Health Center. They saw me fairly quickly and everyone said the same thing: You're lungs and heart are fine, you're breathing normal.. but you are really tense. Do you have a history of anxiety and depression? u_u;; To which I reply: Yes, both actually. It runs in my family, too, so I shouldn't be surprised I guess.
I was trying my best to not have to go through the whole "let's try this medicine to see if it helps you!" since zoloft had such a horrible effect on me (terrible nightmares everynight. You know the ones where you can feel everything? Yeah. And I got murdered in every single on of those nightmares. Imagine that for a good month and a half. u_u;; ).. but after I spoke with the doctor he said it would probably be the best thing for me, since it's causing me to never sleep and to do a little (a lot) bad in school. SO.. tomorrow I'm to report to the health center yet again to do yet another detailed screening for anxiety and depression and too see which medicinal regimine would be best for me.
Oh the terror. u_u;;
I had been doing pretty well up until last week. There's nothing really happening that's out of the norm, lately.. but I guess it's a build up of HUGE events happening in the semi-near future that have been causing this sudden "OMGWTFICANTBREATHORSLEEPIMFREAKINGOOOOUT" stuff.
Needless to say, I had a pretty major anxiety attack on Friday.
Last Wednesday and Thursday nights I got literally no sleep because I was having trouble breathing. Being an asthmatic, I just thought I was slowly having another asthma attack. It wasn't bothering me during the day until the middle of my German class Friday morning. I was just kind of wheezing a bit and thought I could take my inhaler again and be good.. but then my chest tightened and my throat closed off and I just couldn't breath at all. I freaked out and Robert (my boyfriend) and I ran to the campus Health Center. They saw me fairly quickly and everyone said the same thing: You're lungs and heart are fine, you're breathing normal.. but you are really tense. Do you have a history of anxiety and depression? u_u;; To which I reply: Yes, both actually. It runs in my family, too, so I shouldn't be surprised I guess.
I was trying my best to not have to go through the whole "let's try this medicine to see if it helps you!" since zoloft had such a horrible effect on me (terrible nightmares everynight. You know the ones where you can feel everything? Yeah. And I got murdered in every single on of those nightmares. Imagine that for a good month and a half. u_u;; ).. but after I spoke with the doctor he said it would probably be the best thing for me, since it's causing me to never sleep and to do a little (a lot) bad in school. SO.. tomorrow I'm to report to the health center yet again to do yet another detailed screening for anxiety and depression and too see which medicinal regimine would be best for me.
Oh the terror. u_u;;
p.s. NO @ ZOLOFT. I am NOT taking that s**t again.
