So this will be a bit of a long story.
In the second grade, I made a friend named Patrick. He and I had a lot in common, and he became my best friend right away. In the fourth grade, we met my other best friend, Sarah, and she joined our group. We were inseparable until the end of fifth grade.
I went to one middle school while Patrick and Sarah went to another. Sarah and I still hung out a lot, but Patrick was busy so we never really got together. We would email each other, but as the years went by, the emails became more and more scarce, and eventually, they stopped coming all together....
In the spring of my last year of middle school, I received an email from him saying that he saw me playing DDR at an amusement park nearby. We talked some more, but when I asked why he didn't come up and say hi, the emails stopped again.
I'm really into Japan, so I transferred from my home high school and went to the other high school for my freshman year so I could take Japanese. Sarah and Patrick were going there, too. Sarah and I had been hanging out over the summer, and she told me that Patrick had changed.
On the first day of school, upon walking into my Japanese class, I saw him. He grew his hair out, but I could still recognize him. I smiled and waved....
...And he just glanced at me.
We sat next to each other for most of the year, but he barely even spoke a word to me.
Now I'm in my sophomore year, and looking back through my yearbooks and diaries, I realize something.
I had a crush on Patrick! It came as a shock. But that made me start thinking... Do I still like him now?
Without realizing it, I've started wearing cute clothes FOR HIM, I've been feeling lonely when I look at him, and I've been thinking about him constantly.
I know I love him-- but is it friend-love or romantic-love?
I've tried asking my friends, but they all think he's a jerk and are too busy ranting about him to help me out....
In the second grade, I made a friend named Patrick. He and I had a lot in common, and he became my best friend right away. In the fourth grade, we met my other best friend, Sarah, and she joined our group. We were inseparable until the end of fifth grade.
I went to one middle school while Patrick and Sarah went to another. Sarah and I still hung out a lot, but Patrick was busy so we never really got together. We would email each other, but as the years went by, the emails became more and more scarce, and eventually, they stopped coming all together....
In the spring of my last year of middle school, I received an email from him saying that he saw me playing DDR at an amusement park nearby. We talked some more, but when I asked why he didn't come up and say hi, the emails stopped again.
I'm really into Japan, so I transferred from my home high school and went to the other high school for my freshman year so I could take Japanese. Sarah and Patrick were going there, too. Sarah and I had been hanging out over the summer, and she told me that Patrick had changed.
On the first day of school, upon walking into my Japanese class, I saw him. He grew his hair out, but I could still recognize him. I smiled and waved....
...And he just glanced at me.
We sat next to each other for most of the year, but he barely even spoke a word to me.
Now I'm in my sophomore year, and looking back through my yearbooks and diaries, I realize something.
I had a crush on Patrick! It came as a shock. But that made me start thinking... Do I still like him now?
Without realizing it, I've started wearing cute clothes FOR HIM, I've been feeling lonely when I look at him, and I've been thinking about him constantly.
I know I love him-- but is it friend-love or romantic-love?
I've tried asking my friends, but they all think he's a jerk and are too busy ranting about him to help me out....
