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Just so you know, everyone I ever consider a friend tends to vanish, the way of my family. I have come to terms with this. People and I drift apart. It's just what happens. So if you talk to me for however long, don't expect me to be heartbroken if you disappear into the void of the internets. Likewise, don't be surprised if I fall into the abyss.

If I stop talking to you randomly, without any sort of notice, I'm probably bored and have nothing more to say to you. Maybe you've been getting on my nerves, whatever.

If you stop talking to me for months at a time, I'll assume the same. Don't expect me to jump up and down and piss myself in excitement when you inexplicably return. It won't happen.

I don't miss anyone, as a general rule. Not friends, not family, not people. Especially not people who I've already gone three quarters of a year without talking to. I've realized, by now, that life is just as fun-filled without you. Which isn't saying much, but saying enough I don't really care whether you contact me again after your absence.

There are very few people I'd actually appreciate hearing from, whom I haven't talked to in an extended period of time. I either forget them or don't want the hassle of catching up.

This isn't me being mean, this is me being honest. So when I say no, I probably won't miss you, that's not me not caring- that's me answering the question you asked. I'm not going to stoke your ego by pretending. Sorry. I've lost enough people, suddenly, not to be concerned with your forewarned disappearance.


The other thing that irritates me? When people who like me, because I'm mean, return and discover that I'm not. Not as much so, at least. Not anymore.

It pisses me off when you say, 'You're boring now', or nag me about my honesty and the fact that I'm not as inclined to be sarcastic and mean as I once was. And for ******** sake, stop interpreting my apathy as secretly still being mean.

Things have changed. Maybe I am boring now, but I'm alright with that, and if you're not, you can sod off. I'm not magically going to revert to the guy you knew just because you taunt me about sex and drugs. Those days are over. It was a conscious choice and I don't need anyone making things more difficult.


So will I miss you? No.

I'll be glad to be rid of the temptation.

Two completely different issues. I do like getting to know people, but I'm not bothered if we have a falling out or drift apart. It's nice to meet people, but I don't miss them if they're suddenly gone.

This was directed at a few specific people, really.

*Shrug* No, I'm really not bothered. People are free to ask or talk to me about anything they like. I may not answer if I'm not comfortable doing so, but it won't bother me.

Eh, the rant didn't really haven anything to do with love. It was directed at a couple people I only knew online, and only for a few months.

But no, I'm not convinced that love is worth it, which is why I've sworn it off for the time being. In all of its forms.

I totally agree. It doesn't make since to put yourself at a disadvantage due to the stupidity of others. Whatever makes you happy I guess, but there are plenty of people who are actually good individuals and wouldn't leave any of their friends once they have truly become committed. I used to think the same thing and it only got worse when my parents told me that we would be moving. In the last few months I met my best friend, Kalai. She spent months at our house and all our furnture was gone since we were about to leave, but she didn't care. Well I could go on forever about this, but we haven't seen each other for two yyears going on three, but we're still best friends and talk to one another often. Once you meet people like that you come to appreciate being able to feel that. I guess what I'm saying is not to give up but to wait instead.

I do think I'm getting it now though. It makes since as far as I'm seeing it. You're just not ready to...care that much. I'm sure that you do care, but as far as going off and dying for a friend....Am I on the right track now?

Hmm That's a little sad. Without my family, friends, and loved ones I wouldn't be able to live. I know what ?I want though so I guess all I can do is wish you the best of luck in finding what you want.