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They say friends are an important part of your life.

Well, that may be true, but must they be so important that they must change everything about you?

I have a small group of friends, the typical group of close friends that you could have. Well, they are not so typical. They are the weirdest people you could ever meet. I am surprised I call them my friends.

I feel they have corrupted me.

I met most of them in the fifth grade. I was a normal, happy, and fun child. I was great to be around. Now, I am weird, melancholic, and disturbing. They have made this my lifestyle, I have adapted to them. Their names are Kaytlen, Corey, Joe, Chandler, and Annah. I am not trying to be mean, I am quite tolerable of people, but I hate these people so much, I don't want to be friends, but I don't know how to say this to them.

This is what happened in order.

It started out as two people. My buddy Saku and I. I met Saku in the third grade, she was not as weird as the others. We were unbelievably close and I wanted to keep it that way. A couple of months later, I met Kyle. We became close as well and it was not long until I started to have a crush on him. It was your basic eight year old crush, nothing more. He liked me back, too.

Then Kaytlen came along.

This was in the fourth grade, unfortunately, Kyle was in a different class than me, and we only saw each other at recess. Well one day, Kyle made a friend, and it was Kaytlen. I hated her at first sight. I wanted nothing to do with her. I was jealous of her, because she was in the same class and I feel she knew that I liked Kyle, so she rubbed in. Then I met Annah. She was nice, she invited me to her birthday party, where Saku and I became really close friends.

In fifth grade, I was partially over Kyle, but I still liked him somewhat. We still talked, but our friendship grew far apart and I wasn't so sure he liked me anymore. It left me heartbroken, it was my first crush, but I am over it now. Anyway, I was delighted to know that Saku and was in my class. I also saw Annah more in school. Then I met Paul, who was a pretty awkward boy. He was slightly my friend, but then he wasn't. I didn't care much for him. I also met Corey, who was a friend of Kyle, and Joe, who was my "worst enemy".

Three years passed when they started to ruin everything. Kyle had moved, Joe had become my boyfriend, Corey had gotten.. Odd.. Saku moved, which left me in tears for days, Kaytlen hod gotten odd as well as Annah, and Chandler had gotten anger issues and he was pretty scary.

I broke up with Joe a month later, he had sabotaged my backpack because I wasn't paying enough attention to him, so I said, "Remember, Joe, payback is a b***h." Then I left him, heartbroken. I had no regrets, though, but now, writing this, I feel a tiny bit of regret. But, keep in mind, because of that, I got a D in science because my science project was ruined.

Another two years passed and here I am, this is where my problem is..

It is the eleventh grade, I am fifteen tears old. Joe wants me to get back together with him and he is trying to act like me when I do not want to be like this and it pisses me off. He's all melancholic and quiet, spiking his hair trying to be all emo when he just looks like a moron. I don't care if he is doing that for me, I don't like him at all. He tried forcing me down and kissing me and I beat him. I thought he was going to rape me by the way he was doing it.

Kaytlen has driven me insane as well as Corey. I now like Paul, but he likes another girl which is tearing me apart. My grades are slipping and keep in mind I was a straight a student. I have become like them, corrupted and psychotic. They all look to me as their psychotic ring leader, and they are my circus of freaks. I hate it all and I don't know how to get away. It's one of those times when you wish you could go back in time and change everything.

dont blame your friends for ruining your life when you dont tell them how you feel, if you dont want to be around a group of people tell them that, theres no reason to hang out with a bunch of people if you dont want to.
you blame them for your problems and your changing as a person, mabey your going through a phase, and if your thier "ring leader" why have they changed you? you need to fix your issues with yourself before you start blaming other people for your problems.