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So recently I've come to terms with the fact I'm a full on lesbian. Which I'm happy about. The problem is I sorta wanna come out to my friends, and I sorta don't. There's this insane thing where it's like...Being bisexual is OK, but if your full on gay you treated more carefully. Like the fact I'm lesbian means I'm suddenly going to start hitting on all my girl friends. But if I just say I'm bi, it doesn't matter what I do...

Another thing I'm facing is telling some kids at school I'm gay. Only half of the people I hang out with know I've come out as bisexual (Fewer know that I'm really gay...) and it's starting to make me uncomfortable because I feel like I'm lying or something. It's like... I don't want to rub it in there faces that I'm gay, but I want it out there. Like I want them to know WHY I hate it when they try to hook me up with some guy. At the same time though, I know about a quarter of the people I hang out with would have a problem with it, do to there personal views on homosexuality. And I know I could just stop hanging out with them if they try to be mean to me, but I hate the fact that they'd stop liking me JUST because I happen to prefer women. It just bugs the crud out of me because I still have some friends who don't agree with it, but still stay my friend cause they love me. Granted, occasionally they try to tell me about how God could help me onto the right path and stuff, but it really doesn't bother me, cause I just do my little bit of preaching back at them.

There's aaaaaaalllllssssoooo this thiiinnngg going on at my school...Apparently the principal and superintendent are blacklisting kids who identify themselves as Gay, Lesbian, or bisexual. And there reasoning for it is, "Parents want to know who you are, so they can keep their kids from being lead down your path, since you guys have your ways." Or something to that degree.

...Yea. My school is really screwed up. And I'd rather not get blacklisted...

(The only reason I'm not is the kids they pulled in didn't know I was so they didn't say my name.)


*reads text* OK, the thing with the blacklisting doesn't quite make sense, so I'm gonna expand on that....
See, a friend of mine (and maybe a few more kids) Got pulled into the office by the superintendent and the principal and were told to name every Gay/Lesbian/Bisexual they knew. They were also told that if they didn't tell them everyone they knew, they would get into trouble and get suspended. Yea. I'm just having a ball of fun right now...
Anwayz, I just wanted to rant and get this stuff off my chest, cause it's been bugging me awhile. If you have any advice, please feel free to post it.

About the blacklisting, do you go to a public or private school? In what state?

Maybe you could talk about The L Word or something lesbian-related with your closest, most trustworthy friends. Gauge their reactions and go from there. Before you come out to more of your school, it would be good to secure some friends and to find out about your rights as a student versus this stupid blacklist. If you're in a private school, though, you'll have to wait until graduation.

There is a law somewhere...I live in Arkansas though, so who the hell knows if they'd listen...Though I am up in the Northern part...
And I've been testing the soils with them. So far I've apparently got some AWESOME friends. ^^Thanx for the advice!!