So..here's my story:
I used to date this cute guy named nicholas
he lived 30 mins away from me with bike
We never were a couple but everyone said,
that there was a chemistry between us..
Everything started out like this:
One day I went to the city with my girl Melanie
We stopped at this place...It was just a place in a "forest" with some benches..but it was nice to hang around there..
It was kinda a meeting-pont for Goth's,Punks,Emos and all this kind of people
There Melanie happened to meet her old friends Denise and leila ( Both girls ) with some of their friends
I didnt know them so I sat down on a bench and stuff..
Some of their friends came over and talked to me..
Nicholas was one of them..
Well..we listened to music on his ipod together and everything went good..
As it got later and I had to catch my bus, he asked me if i want to walk with him to the busstation..
And so we walked together..and got his little sister from his aunt..( I met his family..they were nice..^^ )In the bus we changed callphonenumbers..and from that point of time on..we dated every satturday..
And I mean every for at lest a half year..or more I dont really know..
We went in the city from 10am to 6pm every saturday..We had a really good time..
I have to mention that I am sooo damn shy.. We went eating icecream and all this stuff..he made me lots of cute compliments.. not directly ones..but it was soo cute..like that one: "People say the kids of ugly parents are stunning and the kids of stunning parents are ugly..Your parents are hella ugly.."rofl I mean..he was a meanie to my parents but it was soo cute
So..after we dated a while we all met again.. I mean Danise, Leila, Melanie, Nicholas and me at Denise's place..It was fun..and he kissed me goodbye..just a peck but I felt all full of butterflies..
But in the next min he turned to denise and kissed her goodbye toothe same way he did to me.. My world kinda crashed..
After a few more dates it stopped.. I dont know why or how but it did..we barely talk..My cellphone was stolen and I dont have his number anymore..
I see him in the bus every ******** day when I go to school..and every time he smiles sadly at me..like a little sad puppy..
But i am shy, as I mentioned..and I dont have the guts to go over and talk to him sad ...Especially cause..I kinda have a new boyfriend
His name is David..he is living hella far away from me..and the distance suckz..
I barely talk to him too..first of all because of the timedifference..Its much when I see him twice a month online..
I never saw him personally..
I am also chatting with his mum..
And she doesnt know about me..
shes like.." thank you for being such a good friend to my son " and it suckz..
I know i am bad but: I looked trhough is myspace-comments..and there are a few girls telling him that they love him..
Especially one girl is bugging me..
I know that he is exactly his type..and she is or used to be his best friend..
And he kinda dont makes me feel that good.. I feel like..I am there when he needs someone and when nobody else is there for him...and if someone else is there.. i am the nobody for him..and it doesnt even really feel like a relationship..even if i miss him and like him very very much...
I am soo confused..and I dont know what to do at all..can you guys help me ??
First of all I want to know:
Do you think that firstmentioned guy named nicholas..loves me or at least loved me ? and do you think I should talk to him..
Second:
what should I do with my" boyfriend" ?
SORRY THAT IT WAS SO MUCH BUT ITS REALLY BUGGIN ME !!
I used to date this cute guy named nicholas
he lived 30 mins away from me with bike
We never were a couple but everyone said,
that there was a chemistry between us..
Everything started out like this:
One day I went to the city with my girl Melanie
We stopped at this place...It was just a place in a "forest" with some benches..but it was nice to hang around there..
It was kinda a meeting-pont for Goth's,Punks,Emos and all this kind of people
There Melanie happened to meet her old friends Denise and leila ( Both girls ) with some of their friends
I didnt know them so I sat down on a bench and stuff..
Some of their friends came over and talked to me..
Nicholas was one of them..
Well..we listened to music on his ipod together and everything went good..
As it got later and I had to catch my bus, he asked me if i want to walk with him to the busstation..
And so we walked together..and got his little sister from his aunt..( I met his family..they were nice..^^ )In the bus we changed callphonenumbers..and from that point of time on..we dated every satturday..
And I mean every for at lest a half year..or more I dont really know..
We went in the city from 10am to 6pm every saturday..We had a really good time..
I have to mention that I am sooo damn shy.. We went eating icecream and all this stuff..he made me lots of cute compliments.. not directly ones..but it was soo cute..like that one: "People say the kids of ugly parents are stunning and the kids of stunning parents are ugly..Your parents are hella ugly.."rofl I mean..he was a meanie to my parents but it was soo cute
So..after we dated a while we all met again.. I mean Danise, Leila, Melanie, Nicholas and me at Denise's place..It was fun..and he kissed me goodbye..just a peck but I felt all full of butterflies..
But in the next min he turned to denise and kissed her goodbye toothe same way he did to me.. My world kinda crashed..
After a few more dates it stopped.. I dont know why or how but it did..we barely talk..My cellphone was stolen and I dont have his number anymore..
I see him in the bus every ******** day when I go to school..and every time he smiles sadly at me..like a little sad puppy..
But i am shy, as I mentioned..and I dont have the guts to go over and talk to him sad ...Especially cause..I kinda have a new boyfriend
His name is David..he is living hella far away from me..and the distance suckz..
I barely talk to him too..first of all because of the timedifference..Its much when I see him twice a month online..
I never saw him personally..
I am also chatting with his mum..
And she doesnt know about me..
shes like.." thank you for being such a good friend to my son " and it suckz..
I know i am bad but: I looked trhough is myspace-comments..and there are a few girls telling him that they love him..
Especially one girl is bugging me..
I know that he is exactly his type..and she is or used to be his best friend..
And he kinda dont makes me feel that good.. I feel like..I am there when he needs someone and when nobody else is there for him...and if someone else is there.. i am the nobody for him..and it doesnt even really feel like a relationship..even if i miss him and like him very very much...
I am soo confused..and I dont know what to do at all..can you guys help me ??
First of all I want to know:
Do you think that firstmentioned guy named nicholas..loves me or at least loved me ? and do you think I should talk to him..
Second:
what should I do with my" boyfriend" ?
SORRY THAT IT WAS SO MUCH BUT ITS REALLY BUGGIN ME !!
