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Okay...I am just so stressed out right now, it's not funny. -.- What to put...I guess it's easier to start form the beginning.
I am 15, and in my entire life, I've been in 3 relationships. The first one is not relevant to my problem, so I don't think there is a need to talk of it. But anyway, my second relationship only lasted about 1 week. My ex, and I were not that...shall we say, compatible. And I honestly don't know what possessed me to even be with him, because all he did was stress me out and just make things worse.
I ended up dumping him for my present boyfriend. Now, we have been together for a month now, and we've had our rough spots, and we've had our arguments, but I think that everything is going actually quite smooth. Up till now. For a while now, his ex has been trying to brake us up, because she wants him back. She is the type that only wants what she can't have. She has a new boyfriend nearly every day, and she doesn't care about anyone's feeling but her own. She has been coming up with all sorts of lies to try to break me and my love apart. She's said things like the only reason we are together, is because we just wanted to forget our ex's, and it's just a rebound. That he actually doesn't like me, and complains about me to her all the time. That he tells her she's better than me and he loves her more than me. That I don't care about him and am just using him (when in reality that's what she did to him). Of course, nothing has worked. I am basically immune to anything that woman can throw at me. I talk to my bf and he clears everything up with me, so I have no reason to worry...
But today, he told me that he had cheated on me with his ex for 3 days, without my knowledge, and he had at first lied and told me it was only 2 days. I'm not sure if this is a big deal or not. After all, though I've been in 3 relationships, I am still new to the strange emotion known as love. But regardless, it hurts... He said he only cheated on me with her once, because he didn't want to lose her as a friend... And though I tell him that everything she says doesn't effect me, there are some things that do, especially when he tries to clear them up with me...
I care, and yet I don't. It hurts, what he did, and it makes me depressed and disappointed, but I can't bring myself to get mad at him. I just love him too much to yell at him or anything like that. But yet, I can't just let it go...it's gonna end up eating away at me in the back of my head if I ignore it, which part of me wants to do. Part of me doesn't care what he did, and is just glad that he is still with me, and doesn't want to leave me...
But I'm not sure what's going on anymore... You see, he is very good at faking things. He can fake his way out of anything. He'd probably be a good actor. But that is where I am lost... How do I know he is not just faking this whole relationship, and what his ex says is actually indeed true? I don't think that is the case, but that thought is in my mind, and it won't go away now.
I am just at a complete and total loss. Help, anyone? I need advise.
