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 Posted: Wed Feb 06, 2008 11:11 pm
G rating. No nothing. Zip zilch zero.
This is just something I wrote...just now actually...with no edits or anything. I'm too sad to do that right now. I watched Phantom of the Opera for the first time and watching that combined with thinking about the only person you ever loved [intimately] is somewhere else...and probably doesn't even care anymore...I was practically sobbing. I'm glad everyone went to bed early...
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Where to go from here? I cannot be with anyone for the guilt eating away at me. He is all I think of. Consuming my thoughts…almost destroying myself from the inside out. He is no longer here nor there. It is impossible to see him once more and yet…my thoughts are still contaminated with his voice. My chest hurts badly…I can barely breathe. And the songs…and the words…all things remind me…I could never forget…Sixty years from now…I will never forget.
Love stories are impossible to continue…Films are even more horrifying. They say ignorance is bliss…If that is true then may it bestow itself upon me. I can not move on. The guilt…the guilt of even contemplating the thought is enough to produce nightmares. But the nightmares are softened by the dreams…and hope that was once there.
I can only hope that he is happy – wherever he may be.
You really don't have to comment. As I said..I just needed to get it out of my system...
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Posted: Thu Feb 07, 2008 3:41 pm
Sorry if it seems like I'm prying, but that was really sweet. Who was the lucky guy? And did he ever know what he left behind?
You don't have to answer, just thought I'd ask.
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Posted: Sat Feb 09, 2008 6:54 pm
I loved it. It was like a bittersweet ending, a sadness filled with longing. <3
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Posted: Thu Feb 14, 2008 4:37 am
Aww. That's sweet...and sad. o.o
A bit too......sad for me though... o.o I hope you see him again?
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Posted: Thu Feb 14, 2008 9:38 am
Twisted_Seraph Sorry if it seems like I'm prying, but that was really sweet. Who was the lucky guy? And did he ever know what he left behind? You don't have to answer, just thought I'd ask. It's okay. Like I said TPOTO didn't really help. It's actually a really long story. So unless you're Russian and like long stories....Haha...Try to guess what movie that was from. sweatdrop
But every thing's kinda okay now. He had to go back to Armenia for some reason and he had to join the army. It's some kinda law. I'm talking to his little brother right now. He's my only connection to him so...
Anyways. If you want all the details I'd have to pm you...and it would be a very long pm indeed. ^^;
And are you sure it didn't sound creepy? After I re-read it I thought it might sound a little creepy. ^^;
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Posted: Thu Feb 14, 2008 9:39 am
Violetwolf24 Aww. That's sweet...and sad. o.o A bit too......sad for me though... o.o I hope you see him again?
Thanks. I hope so too. I've been talking to his little brother, so I kinda know how he's doing but not really.
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Posted: Thu Feb 14, 2008 9:44 am
Ruler of all Cheese I loved it. It was like a bittersweet ending, a sadness filled with longing. <3
Thank you Cheese.
And I guess it does sound like that...I have been waiting for almost a year and half...so waiting a little longer won't hurt. *shrug*
The Phantom of the Opera is an evil movie.
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Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2008 9:24 pm
YukikoTouya Twisted_Seraph Sorry if it seems like I'm prying, but that was really sweet. Who was the lucky guy? And did he ever know what he left behind? You don't have to answer, just thought I'd ask. It's okay. Like I said TPOTO didn't really help. It's actually a really long story. So unless you're Russian and like long stories....Haha...Try to guess what movie that was from. sweatdrop
But every thing's kinda okay now. He had to go back to Armenia for some reason and he had to join the army. It's some kinda law. I'm talking to his little brother right now. He's my only connection to him so...
Anyways. If you want all the details I'd have to pm you...and it would be a very long pm indeed. ^^;
And are you sure it didn't sound creepy? After I re-read it I thought it might sound a little creepy. ^^; I would not mind, after all I am here because I love to read; but you don't have to. No, it did not sound creepy at all, it's sweet; but then again I'm a hopeless romantic (or so I've been told).
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