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What does life mean to you?

To me it means nothing.The only thing stopping from ending my life is that I would find it to be a pitiful and weak,because in a sense life is what you make of it,and for me it means nothing.I try to escape it,to another life.From things like playing World of Warcraft,reading manga,and watching anime for example..Though people would not know it from looking or talking to me.I hate this life and wish I could go another world.

Drift. I want you to know, that no matter what happens in life, one always has a person that's there for them. We may not know each other in real life, but if ever you need to talk or even rant on anything, I'm always willing to listen...

We have our ups and downs yes, but in the end, everything will come together for a purpose.

Thank you Kumiko the only time I am somewhat is when I am online.But I still hate life because I hate myself though in reality no one notices it.Day by day I become more and more lifeless I do not know why but I feel useless, and un-wanted.Do not worry for those who do.I do not cut myself,or plan to kill myself.The only thing keeping me aliv is my false dreams and hate as well as some unknown chain that binds me to this world.

I may now know yours and Capt-Cats reasons for feeling the way you do, but we all have our problems. I actually feel a lot like you do Drift but no one ever sees because I always force on a happy face and act the way others expect of me. I know its living a false lie and all that horrible stuff, but I do it because I care for those people and I want them to smile and be happy no matter what it costs me. I admit I don't like it one bit that I have to lie to them, the people I want most in this world to live their lives their way, I will give up everything.

And I too am deluded by false dreams. Dreams of finding a single person to understand me fro me and who can help take everything away and be there for me, and I wish to do the same for them. More dreams of just finding a single moment of non torture.

Smile, if even for only those around you. It may hurt like a sonuvbitch at times, but it will pay off (or so I wish to believe)

Lol. I know! By the way, has anyone seen De around lately?

But if you're around those whom you love and love you, you'd try not to hurt them would you? Maybe that could help you learn control of your Demon.

None? Not even a family member, close friends?

I admit I get times where I don't think I love them, but though I may not always believe it, there is always love for someone.

Hell, I hate the ******** s**t my father had put my mom and I through. I never want to talk to the b*****d again in my life known everything I now do about him, that I was to ignorant to believe otherwise. But I love him. He is my father after all and if not for him and my mother, I wouldn't be here. So I owe the b*****d that mrgreen

Well then. I'm your friend, and I love you, so be happy! mrgreen