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 Posted: Sat Feb 16, 2008 9:26 am
Herro thar~
I wanted to share my life with peoples~
So, I thought it'd be fun making a journal thread. I've never done something like this before. I seemed like fun~
I'll fix up this first post in a bit~
I already have my first story typed up and it's a bit long...
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Posted: Sat Feb 16, 2008 9:28 am
I decided that I would share the story of my love life.
My friends have told me it's like a crappy drama. One of my friends says she loves to watch and observe my life because she finds it so interesting and dramatic that she wants to learn what happens next.
It's a little long... but I hope at least someone will listen to my tale.
To make it interesting, I'll even include pictures so you can see the characters of my life.
Here I begin.
This is me. [from about a year ago. Doesn't matter. My face hasn't changed drastically.]
This is my story.
It all started back in 8th grade...
I was a total homophobe back then.
I met a girl. Her name is Hannah [this picture was taken yesterday, just to tell you]. When we first met, we hated each other. But, we had to share a PE locker [along with two of our other friends], so that hate didn't last long. We quickly became best friends. I used to be homophobic... until she told me she thought homosexuals should be allowed legal marriage. I suddenly understood that homosexuals were not my enemy, and I didn't realize why I hated them so to begin with. We used to get into a lot of fights, over stupid things. I'd play around with someone else and she'd get so jealous, a fight would somehow form. It always completely mystified me how that happened. It just didn't make sense. But, at the end of 8th grade, we were still as close as ever. She was my best friend and I her's.
During summer break, before we entered into high school [9th grade], I invited her along on a camping trip with my grandparents, my little cousin Noah, and me. It was fun~But, during that trip, I realized I cared for her more than a friend. I liked her, as in crush. We touched each other a lot, but I didn't want to risk losing her by saying anything strange, so I kept it secret.
Once our freshman year began, I confessed to her. I waited a week for her to respond to that. But, finally she came to me, and she told me she liked me too. She'd apparently liked me all 8th grade year, but knew I was homophobic, so didn't risk telling me. It was a shock to her that I liked her and she wasn't sure what to do, hence the week delay. So, we began to go out. Several months later, a friend who'd we shared a locker with in 8th grade, Katie, tried to steal my girlfriend. She and Hannah were in band, so they won't on a band trip, in which I didn't see Hannah for a few days. Our relationship wasn't going to well but I was determined to fix it when she came back. But, the day I saw her was my birthday... and I was dumped [because Katie convinced her she was a better love interest than I. Just to tell you, Katie is VERY persuasive]. Not long after we got back together, but nothing was the same. Our relationship had become on-and-off. Katie was the reason for this. She was messing with out heads and playing with us. Hannah wasn't the only fool who believed Katie's words, "I love you."
Halfway through sophomore year, around the time of my birthday, Hannah told me she was leaving for 9 months to be an exchange student in Japan. That crushed me, but I knew it was her dream to go to that country, so I tried my best to be happy for her. On her last day of school, I said goodbye and managed it with a smile. I thought that'd be the last time I'd see her for a year. I was sadly mistaken. The next day she'd forgotten she needed a paper signed by all her teachers. I remember well when I was dressed for PE and walking to the gym with Kristine [who was Hannah and my friend in 8th grade, too], when suddenly I saw Hannah run past me with a quick "hi". I froze. I wasn't sure if I had imagined her or if my eyes were truthful. So, I followed in the direction I thought the ghost I imagined had gone. But, it wasn't a ghost. It was really her. And with one last goodbye, I didn't see her again. I spent all that day in tears that I'd been trying to control.
Everynight for 5 months, I cried. Then, I went out with a guy [he-who-shall-not-be-named. I hate him. You should too]. Eventually I realized I wasn't in love with him like I had loved Hannah. Hannah was supposed to come back in a month. So, I was going to dump him... until he went crazy. Writing me notes in his blood, cutting himself, threatening to kill himself if I dumped him... he became an enemy of mine [and Kristine hated him too]. I told my counsilor, showed him the notes, then dumped the jerk. When Hannah came back, she rejected me and went out with a guy, Benjamin.
Benjamin asked Hannah out last year on Valentine's Day.
I was sad... but, I knew this was what she wanted, so I gave up. We didn't talk for quite some time. Eventually, in December, we were friends again and she told me she wanted to dump Benjamin and go back out with me. That's when I told her to leave me alone and to not talk to me every again. I hated not talking to her, but I thought maybe I could get over my feelings for her. I was wrong. In January, I sent her an email, apologizing. I got no reply. Then one day, after all my efforts to avoid her, we ran into each other between classes. We quickly both looked the other way. That night I had an email. That was just last month.
Also last month, this guy who I'd liked for half a year started liking me back. His name is Robert [that's a picture or him and me]. I liked him, but I couldn't get over Hannah. Hannah dumped Benjamin three days ago. Robert has been trying to hang out with me, and Hannah's about had enough of him. As long as Hannah is next to me, Robert won't come close. He knows Hannah and my history, and he's not going anywhere near her. I'm sure Hannah would start a fight with him if she had the chance.
Hannah and I are going to be together again... but I want to reject Robert first. I don't want him to continue pursuing me. I can't get the courage to tell him straight out, though. He's my friend and I don't want him to hate me, but I'm still in love with Hannah. He knows that, but he's choosing to ignore it.
I need to tell him soon.
All throughout Hannah and my relationship, when we dated, we realized Gravitation, the manga, really related to us. So, I became her Shuichi Shindou, and she my Eiri Yuuki. I'm her Shuu-chan and she's my Yuki-san~I might get my happy ending. I've waited TWO years for this... I'm so happy.
And because Kristine and Hannah and I went to the park, Kristine took picture of us. So, I feel like posting a few~
This one's a little blurry... I fell through the tire swing, so Hannah was helping me up. Haha.
Our backs.
I was pushing her on the tire swing~
The End.
Sorry it was so long...
But for those of you who read the whole thing, thankies kindly.
Tell me what chu think?
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Posted: Fri Apr 11, 2008 3:45 pm
It looks like you've gone through a lot, but in the end the girl get's the girl! I loved reading every line, and yeah it was dramatic, but it was a real happy ending in the end, so long as they end that way I don't mind a little drama here and there.
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Posted: Sat Apr 12, 2008 1:26 pm
Wow, that's a lot of stuff to go through! I had a pair of friends who also described their relationship like Gravitation, but it wasn't nearly as positive or have a happy ending like yours and Hannah's did. I'm so glad everything worked out! biggrin
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