T___T I'm sorry... I've been having a hiatus, and I don't think I informed everyone >: Things have gotten me stressed and buggered out. My dad's health is worse, my mom is smoking again, our school had our grading period end and I'm bringing up my grade, my friend's been depressed and needs someone there, and I just need a break before I have another panic attack.
I'm just really worried for myself lately, because, if I get overwhelmed, you see... Bad, bad things happen to me. Panic attacks, hallucinations, really bad stuff. I'm just trying to calm my life down for a bit, so that means some of my responsibilities are on hold for right now.
Bad thing is... They're starting to happen. It's scary. I'm frightened. I don't want to re-live.
I feel horrible for not posting much, but just know that I really do love you all, and check on you guys more often than you may think. I hope you all can understand my issues, and forgive me. This is really the reason I've been gone for the past few months. Because stuff's happened and I really don't want to end up in the hospital. I've just been kinda scared to tell you guys... It makes me feel like I'm a helpless person, so I rarely admit things to anyone. But here I am, telling you all that I'm on hiatus, and that I love you guys.
Once I stop seeing this figment of my panic attacks, I'll be here. I promise. Let's just hope that my friends at school can help with my stress, and that shadow thing will go away.
Starting sometime this week, I hope to make a VC/Personal update journal to tell you guys how I'm doing.
Please don't be mad at me, okay? I'm trying my hardest to get over this so I can come back to my family. Our family.
I'm just really worried for myself lately, because, if I get overwhelmed, you see... Bad, bad things happen to me. Panic attacks, hallucinations, really bad stuff. I'm just trying to calm my life down for a bit, so that means some of my responsibilities are on hold for right now.
Bad thing is... They're starting to happen. It's scary. I'm frightened. I don't want to re-live.
I feel horrible for not posting much, but just know that I really do love you all, and check on you guys more often than you may think. I hope you all can understand my issues, and forgive me. This is really the reason I've been gone for the past few months. Because stuff's happened and I really don't want to end up in the hospital. I've just been kinda scared to tell you guys... It makes me feel like I'm a helpless person, so I rarely admit things to anyone. But here I am, telling you all that I'm on hiatus, and that I love you guys.
Once I stop seeing this figment of my panic attacks, I'll be here. I promise. Let's just hope that my friends at school can help with my stress, and that shadow thing will go away.
Starting sometime this week, I hope to make a VC/Personal update journal to tell you guys how I'm doing.
Please don't be mad at me, okay? I'm trying my hardest to get over this so I can come back to my family. Our family.
