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 Posted: Wed Apr 02, 2008 5:29 pm
Hey everyone! I'm new here, so I thought this would be a good way for people to get to know me!
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Posted: Wed Apr 02, 2008 8:24 pm
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Posted: Thu Apr 03, 2008 12:03 am
Welcome to the Diaries section!
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Posted: Thu Apr 03, 2008 2:53 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 04, 2008 6:55 pm
I thought I should let everyone know that I changed my name from Rai_1134 to Mandy_1134. Just made a little bit more sence! mrgreen
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Posted: Tue Apr 08, 2008 5:13 pm
I thought about comming out to my parents today-that's as far as it went though. I just chickened out, because I know once I do things won't be the same, or at least for a while they won't. So I decided I'll tell them after I graduate. My friend Adam said I should probably do it now, but I can't. I know they won't disown me or anything, but if I were to get a girlfriend they would never let me go anywhere or anything so it would be miserable and uncomfortable untill I go to college-am I doing the right think?
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Posted: Wed Apr 09, 2008 7:45 am
Well, you're the only one who can say when the best time to come out is. Not only is it about being comfortable with telling your parents (or anyone else for that matter), you should also look at the best timing. Since you said that you know they won't disown you or anything drastic, it's a matter of whether you want to risk them saying you can't date. There's a chance your parents could come around and be comfortable with it before you get to college, and there's a chance they may not.
How long until you go to college?
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Posted: Thu Apr 10, 2008 5:53 pm
JahLoveAngel Well, you're the only one who can say when the best time to come out is. Not only is it about being comfortable with telling your parents (or anyone else for that matter), you should also look at the best timing. Since you said that you know they won't disown you or anything drastic, it's a matter of whether you want to risk them saying you can't date. There's a chance your parents could come around and be comfortable with it before you get to college, and there's a chance they may not. How long until you go to college? I go to college in about two years, and if I were to come out right now and find a girlfriend sometime down the road they would forbid me to date her because they wouldn't want me to be like this or they would say that it was just a phase and I should avoid it, or they would use some sort of excuse like they think I'm to younge to date, or to younge make a dissision like that. But I've been this way my whole life I just hadn't come to terms with what all my "attractions" untill just recently, but ever since I was younge I knew there was just something differnt with me, because I didn't find boys attractive I found girls attractive. I did tell my mom yesterday actually that I supported gay marriage, and I have been dropping hints. I honestly think they susspect [espically my dad] and that's why I know they won't disown me, pluse-even though they won't admit it- my parents are kind of liberal, I just don't want them to feel uncomfortable being around me and my lesbianism, and if I'm out living on my own they I don't see how it could bother them.
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Posted: Wed Apr 16, 2008 4:34 pm
Today started out as a normal day, until health class came around. It was nice out today and we didn't have that much to cover so our teacher let us go out and play softball, and in my class are my two best friends Brandon and Adam. [and the only two who know that I'm a lesbian] So we start playing and my friend Jon went to bat, and he's foaling it and getting strikes, so when he comes back to the end of the line after striking out I tell "It's okay Jon, belive it or not you are still better than me!" So than I go up and I hit the ball the first time it comes, but I got out. So Jon goes back up and he's strikning it and foaling and he comes back to the end of the line and I tell, "It's okay Jon that first time was a fluke I'll miss them for sure now beacuase I just suck at this game!" Well then my turn comes and I hit a homerun!! So then me and Brandon go and play in the out fields and I joke around with him saying that "ever since I came out that I am a dyke I've been doing a lot better in sports!" [I play golf and I've been driving it a lot further]
So I told that to Adam and we're gofing around and I'm saying stuff like," I could of been a jock, I could of been on the softball team and shower with the other girls!" stuff like that, because I love joking around with those two. Well we get back into the building and Adam and I are still clowning around and then the fire alarm goes off! So we're headed outside again, and Jon get's in front of me and Adam comes up behind me and says " the fire alarm went off because you came out!" or something like that and Jon over heard, turned around and goes "What?!" So I freak out and I go "oh they like to tease me, he's just joking around" and then I quickly leave telling Adam I hate him. Well he gives me a few hugs and we head back inside. My next class was Biology and Jon sits with me and that class. So he comes up to me and goes "so why did the fire alarm go off" and I tell him, Adam is a jerk, we play and tease eachother like that all the time. and he goes so why did your face get all red, and I tell him it didn't and turned around. So he get's all his work out and I turn around and change the subject and help him with English. But I do plane on telling him, now that we are out of school. It wasn't like he was not going to find out anyway, but I guess this is the best way to come out to a friend right?
Anyway sorry it was so long, but has anything like this ever happend to anyone.
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Posted: Wed Apr 23, 2008 1:58 pm
Oh man something terrible happend today. I just found out this girl I asked out earlier on in the year boyfriend died today! [okay now for those who are confused let me explain]
You see earlier on in the year my friend Wendy was telling me how she had these feeliings for girls and how she wasn't happy with her boyfriend. Well I told her I had feelings for girls too, and not to worry her secret was safe with me. [ plus she was kind of flitering with me before this, in guitar class she was dancing and kept swinging her butt up to me ] So I already had my suspicion. Well after she told me this I asked her out on a date, and she said she didn't want to cheat on her boyfriend and how being gay is a sin. [ she's very religious ] Well I found out at that time her and her boyfriend had sex [so I think that was the cause for her quick change of heart. Anyway we stayed friends, but then I found this out today. I would have comfort her, but she wasn't there. [no I'm definitly not going to try to hit on her after this!] I feel kind of guilty and I'm not sure on how to approach her, because if I did it wronge she might think that I was trying to get her or something-you know? Anyway that is my story for today for those of you who want to comment their welcome.
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Posted: Wed Apr 23, 2008 10:43 pm
Wow. That's kind of scary. I think you're right to give her space right now in case she thinks you're making a pass at her and gets upset. I hope she'll be ok. . .
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Posted: Thu Apr 24, 2008 4:06 pm
I hope so too, she wasn't at school again today!
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Posted: Mon May 05, 2008 2:45 pm
Okay, so it's been a while since I lasted updated, but here's the news.
Wendy finally came back to school, last Friday, she didn't seem all that upset though, but I overheard her friends say that she was on some kind of medication.
Well today I saw her in guitar and we were watching these guys reherse for a concert when I told her about this guitar shop that just opened up and that how they have these bands play there and if she ever wanted to go on a Saturday let me know and we'd go. Well I think I might of accedientaly asked her out or indicated that I would want to by saying that. At first she responded by seeming a little stand offish, but then we got into a big disscussion about coffee and I guessed how she took hers [cream and sugar] She seems to be okay now, but I don't want to try to build a relationship witth her like this. And I know deep down she's hurting, she tried pot last weekend during prom and that's just not like her. She said she was just board and would never do it again, but I'm not sure. Is there a time that you should let a person be before trying to hit on them? [ I must sound like the worst person in the world for asking that]
I still haven't told my friend Jon that I'm gay yet, we have been getting along just fine and I did tell him I would explain, however I don't know how to go abouts approaching it and he hasn't asked since then, so I guess I'm kind of off the hook. Well anyone who wants to take a crack at this one is more than welcomed!
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Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 2:59 pm
Well we just got off school, I actually left two days early. I've been having some "trouble" with my depression lately, it's been pretty bad lately, so I thought I give myself some extra time, you know? I've been planing on playing my guitar and finishing my painting, but so far all I've been doing is cleaning the house, and weedwacking. I guess my depresson is getting worse is because I relized last summer I use to hang out with my one friend, but she screwed me over and she was kind of the only real close friend I had, up untill Jon, but now he's got a girlfriend and doesn't want to really hang out.[I don't what he's worried about] So I guess the constant loliness is getting to me. Anyway it stormed like a son of bi**** the other day, so I put on some blues music and cried it away. I am starting to feel a little better though, now that I'm keeping myself busy.
I'm going to start looking for work, I'll know tomorrow if I have my old job from last year at a resturant...if not there's always that pet shop. Who knows mabe I'll meet someone heart
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Posted: Fri Sep 05, 2008 2:40 pm
Hey everyone! Been a while since I was on! So I just wanted to say hi! heart
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