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 Posted: Sun Jun 01, 2008 12:35 am
Ok well I started in the Life Issues section but decided to create a thread here to rant.
Here is what I've been ranting about:
"Okay so basically I'm bisexual. I would say I would much rather be with a girl than a guy but honesty it doesn't really matter since it is sincerely doubtful that I'll ever be with someone.
There's this girl I met about two months ago. A co-worker. From the first time I met her I thought she was super cute. As I got to know her more I began to have feelings for her. I don't usually fall for anyone, just the occasional crushes.
The thing is... First off she's not gay. I'm 99% sure of it. Secondly, she's about 10 years older than me. [She soo doesn't look it. Such a pretty girl <3] It's not a problem for me but she doesn't really go for younger people. [Borderline *****??] There's also the fact that there's a chance she's leaving and going back to Japan in a few months.
I think about her so often and she just makes me smile when I see her. It makes me want to hug her so badly. [I gave her this hug from the back today <3 ..as a friendly hug, you know.. >__>;]
Oh.. there's also the little fact that I'm not exactly out of the closet. Only a few of my friends know I'm bisexual. And only one of my friends that I talk to every so often that knows about this girl. She likes to tease me about her >___< "
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Posted: Sun Jun 01, 2008 12:40 am
I text message her randomly sometimes. The only reason she doesn't have thousands of messages is because I don't want her to think I'm annoy or stupid.
Damnit. Listening to all these love songs just makes me think of her more. But it's all I feel like listening to nowadays.
Aitai_
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Posted: Wed Jun 04, 2008 11:59 pm
Ugh. Why am I always so stupid....
But I want to see her.
Holy crap my friend is being stupid. Leave me alone crying
Ah! I've been reading Nana manga. It's getting so interesting! There is so much that they didn't put into the anime. I wonder why that is. I love Nana & Ren more in the very beginning. They were so awesome together then. But now everything between them seems so forced because they're celebs. Heart<3 Shinichi. He's soo kawaii.
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Posted: Tue Jun 10, 2008 2:09 am
I need a new manga to start reading. Someone suggested One Piece but it doesn't really seem like my kind of thing. Maybe I'll just check out a few chapters. If I don't like it I'll find something else? Chances are I'll probably just keep reading it tho xP
Today (yesturday) was such a great day. If I could be her company every so often like this I could die so happy. Just being with her makes me so happy. I sat there grinning like the biggest fool watching her. It was awesome xD<3
I've decided that I will always smile. Even if there's something troubling me. Because I don't want to be that person that brings people down. I want to make people smile =]
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Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2008 12:19 am
Waaa~ I'm soo happy <3
It was so much fun watching the fireworks with her. I took a bunch of super cute pictures with her camera. During the whole time the fireworks were going off she had her arm linked with mine <3 Hehe I was just grinning like a total idiot the whole time. Even when we were leaving we were still linked together. At one point I grabbed her hand so that I wouldn't lose her. Gaooo <3 Ahh I wish we could've stayed like that forever.
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 8:49 pm
She was sad and she cried. I stood by her side and tried to wipe those tears away. Even in that final moment when we said our goodbyes she cried. But I couldn't shed a single tear. But now it's sunk in and I can't stop crying. How will I survive not being able to see her everyday? I need to be strong. It wasn't a goodbye. It was a "See you later."
Two weeks too long. Two weeks too short.
Wait for me and I'll wait for you.
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