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and for my next question mmm have you been in love and if you have how long or what happened....we´ll take this as only one question lol
Well there are three long depressing stories there. So ill try to sum them up as best I can.
First girl I went totally insane for, literally apparently. We had been good friends for like 3 years, we had the idea to both go to the prom stag as friends. Like a twit I told her about a week before that I wanted more then friendship. She started avoiding me heavily, so my OCD kicked in and I went looking for her asking what was wrong, sometimes finding her. Then on prom, she took her ex boyfriend (who cheated with her and also had the girl he cheated with as a second date) I spent most of the night alone assuming she hated me, my sis got her to admit that she thought I was a creepy stalker and I spent the reminder of prom alone and depressed. I just failed at love and lost a good friend of 3 years in the process, I escaped to Ottawa because I could not face anyone back home.
Second girl, I stilled talked to the first girl online occasionally, hearing about how happy she was moving on made me super desperate. However being new to Ottawa and having insane hours of class and a bad case of insomnia (I lost over half my weight that year) I deiced to go meet girl the only place I knew I could. Here on Gaia (long before the guild), I wasn’t too bad to start she was a bit aggressive. I spent a lot of time on the phone at night talking to her among other things
sweatdrop . I eventually started to get disturbing bits of info about here though, for one she was an extreme conservative, religious to the point of zealously, and wanted to be part of the KKK or a neo-Nazi group. Being despite I could take that, I knew that when college was done I could go see her and try to lean her towards sanity. But she cheated on me before we could ever really meet. And 6-8 months of my college life where wasted in the darkness of my dorm room.
Girl three, this one isn’t really over, yet. It will be soon, I think
sad .It was my second year of college (it was supposed to be my last) I moved out of the dorm and into an apartment with my friend (he’s Dragosan to you folks). Here again desperate I resorted to online dating and I was set on finding someone local. However since I completely sucked in geography class I got one that lived 2 hours out
sweatdrop and figures I left my car back home. These ones been painful, she kept promising to meet me then made elaborate lies not to. So eventually I went to see her, only she sent me to an old address she moved from years prior. I was annoyed but I forgave her. About 3 months later I discover she has other guys in her life and tells me that it’s ok because she still loved me, she just loved them too apparently. Now I know she’s been screwing around, she visits these guys, calls them every night. So clearly despite our history, despite the entire year I have devoted to her I’m about as important to her as a lump of dirt. I’ve never meet her offline, she’s never called me, and even on msn I rarely get to speak to her. So probably tomorrow I’ll end that, again, for good this time.
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